~> Sensational Illussions <~

Moving On Is not easy but finally I've came into that line..

2006-12-20T22:49:00.000+08:00

Oh, I'm so happy to day.. Finally naka-get over na ako talaga sa nangyari sa'min ng ex ko.. Hindi naman ganung kadali maka-move on kasi minahal ko siya ng sobra eh.. Kaso yung makita ko yung pagmumukha niya nung Christmas Party namin kahapon during our mass, na-realized ko wala na siyang halaga sa buhay ko. And this time hindi na talaga ako nanloloko ng mga friends at ng sarili ko. FOR REAL na talaga 'to. Many are happy for me but of course I'm the very first one on the line na masaya para sa sarili ko diba? Eto yung nasa gm ko kaninang umaga:

" I maybe hurt when you left me for another or even have my world fell apart.
But now it is DIFFERENT, ~~I'm standing up and leaving all your memories behind.~~
Thank you for leaving me, I'm a lot of better person now..
And I've realized I'm better off alone, WITHOUT YOU.. "

..still pretty than ever (^^,

Yan yung nagawa kong quote kaninang umaga habang nagawa ng gm nung ma-realized ko na naka-move on na ako. Ang ganda nga daw sabi ng iba eh, At saka nakatulong din yung mga "papa" na nakilala ko para malimutan siya.. Simula nang mag-break kami, sunod-sunod ang nakikilala kong guys tapos lahat sila cute!! Feel ko nga blessing in disguise din ang nangyari. Every guy that I've met is cool, Except for this one guy who irritates me a lot! Ang kapal ng mukha niya para kurutin pa ako sa cheek ko kahapon eh hindi nga kami close!!!

'Yoko na nga isipin ang lalaking yun! For the moment, mas mahalaga ay ang aking si Nick!! Hayy nako, mukhang nafafall na ako sa lalaking yun. Mukha lang pero like pa naman siguro ito eh. Si Nick ang nagpapasaya talaga sa'kin ngayon as in!! Hindi niya lang alam na ganun yung epekto niya sa'kin. Nafefeel ko na nga rin na sooner or later eh baka siya na ang um-occupy ng binakanteng place ng ex ko sa puso ko. We're so common in many ways! At grabe, nawiwindang ako sa kanya kasi varsity siya ng VPS (basketball)! Waaahhh! number 15 ang jersey number niya! Ang cute nga eh, kasi yung crush ko na si Ronnie eh jersey number niya last year number 5 (fav. ko) tapos ngayong year 10 (fav. ko din) siya!! Ngayon kapag i-aadd ang dalawa equal siya kay Nick, I mean sa jersey number ni Nick. Gulat nga ako na varsity pala siya at basketball pa! Grabe! I like guys who knows how to play basketball better kung varsity. Parang yung ex ko na si Sid, varsity na MVP pa hanggang ngayon nga eh MVP pa din yung panget na yun! Anyway past is past ang mahalaga ay ang aking si Nick! (naulit na naman eh) Nakausap ko siya yung isang araw eh kaso kahapon, hindi at ngayon mukhang hindi na naman!! I miss him terribly!! Sana nga miss na din niya ako. (iba na 'to!!) Anyway basta for my part masayang-masaya na ang dating ng Christmas ko, Siyempre nandiyan na si Nick. Sana hanggang sa 2007 nasa life ko pa din siya. Sana hindi siya dumating sa buhay ko tapos bigla na lang mawawala, Ayoko mangyari yun!! I wanted him to be a part of my life for a long time. Hopefully!!

I'm so thankful God gave Nick to me just to help me get through with the pain I've felt about my ex. But I hope hindi niya naman paaalisin si Nick sa buhay ko nang ganung ka-bilis! Hindi ko yata makakaya! Siya kasi talaga ang nagpapasaya sa'kin ngayon eh. Sa kanya ko ulit naramdaman yung happiness na gusto ko maramdaman nung kami pa ng ex ko. Hindi na din naman kasi ako ganung kasaya nung huling 2 months namin ng ex ko eh lalo na yung huling month namin, kasi doubtful na ako sa kanya at saka feel ko talaga na wala na siyang love for me at nakahanap na siya ng iba which is true naman! Kahit nasasaktan na ako sa mga pinaggagawa niya noon, binalewala ko na lang kasi mahal na mahal ko siya talaga pero nagkamali pala ako sa taong napili ko mahalin ng sobra. Kaya kung magkaka-boyfriend uli ako gusto ko yung TOTALLY kilala ko na siya. Though masakit siya at first, now when I am looking back on it, I don't feel the searing pain in my heart anymore. Pinagtatawanan ko na nga lang siya actually, kasi ridiculous but hilarious siya talaga! Basta kung alam niyo lang talaga ang love story namin. Naalala ko nga pala yung sinagutan ko sa bulletin na mga tanong. Naalala ko yung isang tanong na: "Kung papipiliin ka, Anong title ng love story niyo?" ang sagot ko dun: "LOVE SUCKS!!" Kulet diba? Ewan ko nga kung bakit yan naisip ko eh. Basta ang cute nga eh, nakakatuwa. Siguro kahit sad ending yun love story namin eh comedy naman! So much for that, Past is Past!! Ang mahalaga ay ang aking si Nick.

Anyway, Christmas greetings nga pala to everyone! Ehekk, sana maging maganda din ang Christmas niyo!! So, bye-bye for now! Check ko lang at baka online pa ang aking Nick.

^ I wanna be you're everything ^
- I can't believe you're here with me -
* If you believe that dreams come true, there's one that's waiting there for you *
_ There is nothing in this world that cannot be, If you believe _
` Baby, I'm falling for you `

I finally knew his name.. (^^, [Whatta Day!]

2006-12-12T19:16:00.000+08:00

I'm moving forward na.. I don't want to expect something co'z I know it will never come. I just have to move forward and continue living my life to the fullest. Well,, masaya ako ngayon! Kasi naman yung remedial classes namin, naisip ko yung crush ko na si Ramas.. Grabe, alam niyo ang tagal-tagal ko na hinihintay malaman yung pangalan niya. Tapos yung remedial class nga bigla ko siya naisip tapos, kinabahan ako!! Feeling ko malalaman ko na yung name niya. Sinabi ko pa nga kay Mich (yung friend ko) yun eh yung mukhang malalaman ko na name niya. Tapos pag-uwi ko ng bahay, nag-open ako ng friendster ko.. May testi.. tapos galing kay Nikai, ayun pala.. Sinabi niya yung name ng crush ko!! Gosh!!!! Ronnie name niya! Aww, miss na miss ko na kagwapuhan no'n!! I terribly miss him! I hope to see him in the future. Kaso, magka-iba kami ng school kaya medyo malabo! Pero crush na crush ko pa din yun. Kahit hindi ko siya nakikita.. Siyempre! Naka-picture na kasi mukha niya sa'king puso't isipan! hehe! Siya ang pinakagwapong lalaki na nakita ko ngayong 2006. It's been a long time since nung magka-crush ako.. At grabe, hindi talaga nagbabago ang taste ko!! (landi na eh!) Hindi, kasi lahat ng mga crush ko matatangkad. Tapos kung tutuusin halos lahat ng ex ko matatangkad din. Wala, para kasing ang sarap tingalain ng isang guy lalo kapag lovers kayo. (Huwag lang yung sobrang mangangalay ako sa kakatingala) Pag tinitingala ko siya (let's say my boyfriend ako, tapos matangkad), whenever I feel looking to him, it's one of my way to tell him: "I really adore you" Share lang! I have fetish for tall guys, really. Wala, basta matangkad tapos maputi and cute I'll go gaga talaga! Anyway, I really wanted to see him! Yung closing ng DOPPSA sa Jan.12 tapos sa MIPSS pa! Badtrip! Chance ko na nga para makita uli yung gorgeous sweetie ko tapos nahipan pa ng hangin! I miss Ronnie Ramas!! Hindi ako tipong obsessed na sa kanya, ito lang kasi uli yung time na nag-set ako ng eyes ko sa ibang boys! Ever loyal gf kasi ang sister niyo dito. Anyway, makita ko lang uli siya, hayyy.. wala na akong mahihiling pa for Christmas and for my birthday sa Jan. 10. That would be the greatest gift I would ever receive! Better kung meron isa sa mga friends ko ipakilala ako sa kanya. Oh, sobrang saya nun at nakakakilig talaga! Basta, kailangan ko makahanap ng picture no'n! Para kahit hindi ko siya nakikita eh may tititigan pa ako! Kahit may picture na siya sa heart and mind ko, siyempre mas masaya pa rin kung meron akong pagsasawaang titigan! Pero tingin ko hindi ako magsasawa sa kagwapuhan ng lalaking yun! Alam niyo yun, I can't take my eyes off him the moment ng makita ko siya! Mawala lang siya, hinahanap ko agad. Tapos atat ako bumaba ng breaktime para makita lang siya.

Hekhek. Hahanapin ko siya no matter what! I mean yung picture niya. I don't want to think about my breakup.. I have realized there is someone who will come into your life to play with your feelings. But if that happens to you, Kahit masakit siya, wag niyo na lang masyado dibdibin kasi mararanasan din nila yan. At hindi sila ka-iyak-iyak no! Magpakatatag na lang kayo! Kung meron mang kaparehas ng sitwasyon ko, wag niyo na dibdibin! Tandaan niyo.. Maganda tayo! So yun lang masasabi ko. Peace out guys!

^ I've been longing to see you.. I hope to see you soon. That's the only thing I want, and I wouldn't ask for more ^
* You bring this magical feeling to me whenever I see you *
~ You'll never know that this is what you do to me ~
+ I'm the greatest fan of your life +
|| Gorgeous Sweetie ||
\zHiNgKoHtEn/

HEARTBROKEN + MISERY = My world is falling apart.. [sigh]

2006-12-10T00:25:00.000+08:00

Sa tagal ko nang hindi nag-a-update sa blog ko.. Hindi ko na-kwento nangyari.. Basta break na kami.. May mahal na kasi siyang iba.. [sigh] Life goes on.. Kung kailan malapit na yung 8th monthsary namin dun pa nawala. Hindi ko na macecelebrate pagkatapos ng birthday ko sa January yun monthsary namin. And these are what I've realized..

When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go! You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not part of it. Everything happens for the best. If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try. You'll never love a person you love unless you risk for love. Love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, you don't learn how to love. Love doesn't hurt all the time. Though the hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow.

Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love because you don't force yourself to fall. You just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing its chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages. Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing.

The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get back on the horse. But don't ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time. To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing! To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose true self, to love is to risk not to be loved in return.

How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain. Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that always last for a lifetime. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end.

Loving people means giving them the freedom who they choose to be and where they choose to be. For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitless years, you should give thanks, for you know, that there were the things that helped you grow. Loving someone means giving him the freedom to find his way, whether it leads towards you or away from you. Love is a painful risk to take but the risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then you'll experience the fullness of humanity and that is love. Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart. Only love can make you cry and only love knows why. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take the risk, if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love. There was a time in our lives when we became afraid to fall in love 'coz every time we do, we get hurt, then I figured that's why it's called falling in love.

When you love someone they become a part of you, maybe that's why it hurts so much when you lose someone you love, coz you lose a part of yourself.

I know my tears won't make the pain go away, but I still can't help but cry.

Every once in a while this unbelievable sadness comes over my heart and breaks it all over again... not because of the way things are but the way things could have been.

There are certain people who are not meant to fit in your life, no matter how much you want them to be.

The only thing that hurt me more than my broken heart was knowing that if I had a chance to do it all over again.. and suffer the same..
I would.

You will forever be my heart's strongest weakness.

Give me time to catch my breath before you take it away again.

As long as you hold someone in you heart you can never lose them.

Sometimes the hardest things to let go of are the things you never really had.

It's hard to teach your mind to stop loving someone your heart still does.

The only thing that truly scares me is what love can do to a person.

It's not like I have forgotten the memories we have. I am just dealing with the pain...and the crazy thing about it, is I'd take him back but the fool in him that walked out is the fool who just won't ask.

Ang gusto ko lang sa mundong ito ay mahalin siya, Pero ayaw niya ako hayaan.

I wanted to close my eyes and never wake up to see another sunrise.. the dramatic change of hue over the horizon..

I was in a melancholic mood of coldness when I realized that no matter how deeply I love someone, it will fade away.. slowly.. painfully.. yet, ironic as it may seem, it will come back.. and it will linger..

Miss na miss ko na siya.. Gusto ko na siya bumalik sa'kin.. Pero impossible na.

When I'm in Love.. I'm really stupid. My emotions is always there to take over my whole being that's why things get out of hand. [sigh]

Wala na pag-asa, kaya move on na lang ako..

..Kawawang Bata

2006-12-03T01:42:00.000+08:00

Valentine

Favorite song ko..

Nakikinig ako ng favorite song ko ngayon.. Yung Valentine.. Siguro naman narinig niyo na 'yan.. Ang ganda talaga nito. Hay.. NapakaHirap pa lang mag-type ng isang kamay lang.. Ang malas ko kasi, nabalian ako ng aking magaling na kuya.. Pa'no kasi inaagaw yung pera ko.. Sa kamalasang palad naagaw na nga yung pera ko, nabalian pa ako. Kaya ito ngayon sobrang hirap ako mag-type pero hindi ko matiis tipain ang keyboard ng isang kamay lang.. Pinipilit ko gamitin yung isa ko pang kamay.. Kasi naman, petsa na ako matatapos kung isang kamay lang diba? Nababadtrip ako sa Sun! Tinopak kaya hindi ako makapag-send.. Inaantok na nga ako sa kakahintay ng mga text. Pero puro gm lang.. Anyway Saturday na.. Malapit na naman mag-Monday.. Pasukan uli!! Hay, Ang totoo ayoko pa pumasok! Ito ang ayaw ko kapag matagal yung araw na walang pasok eh! Tinatamad na ako bumalik sa school. Buti na lang isa lang assignment namin at madali naman siya kahit pa'no. Pero ang problema ko yung Geometry, baka may test kami dun! Ang hirap nga para sa'kin.. Yung paghahanap ng 4 missing sides ng triangle. Hindi yun ang problema actually, ang kinatatakutan ko yung bunutan uli kagaya nung remedial namin.. Ang malas mo kasi kung nabunot mo ang malaking number. Tapos iii-square mo pa yung number na yun kung sakali, mano-a-mano! Walang calculator! Eh my god! Hindi naman ako kasing-talino ni Einstein at nalilito na ako mag-multiply kapag malaking number. Hay naku.. I'm really crossing my fingers on this so please pray for me too! Ayoko magka-zero sa Geometry ngayon! Medyo kabado din ako sa Chemistry, baka kasama ako sa sesermonan ng adviser ko.. Jeez, wag naman sana! Takot ako sa adviser ko kapag magalit eh, mala-anghel yun pero kapag galit kabaligtaran? Atin-atin lang yun! Nag-practice din kami sa English ngayon, hindi ako nagtagal kasi solo ko na naman ang piyesa. At saka ayoko rin magtagal dahil wala akong pera pang-McDo at mas gusto ko pang matulog na lang! Pagdating ko sa bahay nanood agad ako ng The Curse Of Lizzie Borden.. Kaloka ang palabas na yun ah! Hindi nakakatakot, nakakadiri lang pala! Kasi puro pang-a-ano dun ng axe.. Grabe! Meron dun yung babae yung tinamaan ng axe yung tiyan niya labas agad yung Large Intestine tapos yung hindi pa siya namamatay pilit siya tumatayo para makatakas habang hawak yung Large Intestine niya kaso si Cassy na na-possessed dun "yung pumapatay" palapit nang palapit tapos yung Small Intestine niya lumalabas na rin hanggang sa hindi niya na nagawang tumayo dahil sa takot kay Cassy kasi palapit na nang palapit eh! Lahat ng kaibigan niya pinatay niya pati yung boyfriend niya. Grabe yung pagpatay niya sa mga kaibigan niya dun gamit yung axe. Akala mo parang baboy lang yung tinatamaan eh. As in lahat ng pinapatay niya naliligo sa sarili nilang dugo. Pero hindi ko masyado gets yung story nung huli kasi namatay na rin si Cassy kaso yung kahuli-hulihan pinakita na nasa isang room lang siya tapos parang baliw na dun.. Ang gulo! Hindi ko din ma-gets yung dahilan kung bakit niya pinatay yung father and stepmother niya. Tapos hindi ko din gets kung bakit "The Curse of Lizzie Borden" ang title.. Hindi ko ma-gets kung ano yung sumpa dun?! Hay ang gulo! Pero hindi ako natakot kahit mag-isa lang ako nanood. Pagkatapos ko panoorin yun nanood ako ng He Is So Cool. Maganda din yung palabas kaso tinulugan ko lang kaya hindi ko natapos. Plano ko mag-movie marathon kanina kaso inunahan ako ng antok kaya yun hindi natuloy! Isang palabas lang natapos ko.. Tumawag nga pala yung ex ko.. Wala, hindi ko siya nakausap kasi tulog ako nung tumawag siya. Siya yata yung tumatawag sa'kin recently na hindi ko masagot-sagot dahil sa tulog ako. Sayang! Kasi naman, may pag-uusapan kami ng ugok na yun eh. May iku-kwento sa'kin yun. Kaso syempre nahihiya ako sa kanya kasi, wala lang! Nahihiya ako eh! Sana nga tumawag uli siya para naman magka-kwentuhan na kami.. Wala na ako masabi!

* Yan ang braso kong napilayan.. Ang saya diba? May bandage pa.. Feel ko tuloy napaka lampa ko!
Photo Taken: 12/2/06 08:35pm

* Kaming dalawa uli ni Rima. Natulog ako saglit ng katabi siya. Nasa kusina kami niyan dun sa sirang sofa. Lakas Trip lang!
Photo Taken: 11/30/06 10:11am

^ What would I do If you took your love away from me? ^
* Hindi ko na alam kung makakaya ko pa, 'di bale na lang kaya *
- I don't wanna fight no more, I forgot what we were fighting for -
& Would they love you the way I do? &
+ Co'z I don't want to fight no more +
| You got to let me know so I can get over you |
..I Just couldn't fall for anyone new..
# Nobody But YOU #

The most arrogant message I've ever received

2006-11-30T21:21:00.000+08:00

OnLine sa MySpace

Nagma-myspace ako ngayon.. Grabe ha! I've got the most arrogant message sa MySpace.. Ayos na sana eh ang ganda pa naman ng tingin ko sa picture niya dahil mukhang si Ronnie ng PDA.. kaso arogante talaga! Mga pinagsasabi ng lalaking yun! Usually kasi hindi ako nakaka-receive ng ganung messages although madami nagmemessage na mga nambobola.. mga nakikipag-friends.. May iba naman inaaya ako ng date.. Kaloka talaga ang mga yun! Eto yung letter ng guy..

......hey, as i surf the net, and filtered whom i can
make frends with, ur so lucky that u were included on
my list..
lolz...

..... der wer so many hot chicks here,but few are the
ones who radiate a simple yet outstanding personality,
so if we can be frends, we can start with an email
relatioship, fall madly in love with each other by
email msgs and finally be married online..laughs....

.......then again, we can have a cup of tea and if i
can verify that u had finally overcome ur shyness,
perhaps we can find a priest for an on line marriage..
cool? isnt it?=)

......Txt me anytime of the night, here's my mobile
nos. 09182609704/09167412881 my ym: richard23_locus@yahoo.com chus what have you..
............but pls text me not later than 11pm coz
that's the time when my mum takes me to my bed and
force me sto sleep...=)

...........by the way, where can i reach u if i wnt to
call u ten times a day? lolz..

>> Na-windang ako sa sinabi niya ha.. In all fairness.. Kita niyo naman kung bakit.. Nakakaloko siya pero hindi ko seseryosohin ang sinabi niya.. Joke lang naman siguro yun..

Now I remembered this guy who gave me a poem.. Kaloka rin yun ahh.. Pero nawala na sa inbox ko yung poem niya ehh.. Maganda din yung poem niya.. Ahakk!

Lyrics ng Art Of Letting Go: Verse:
is this goodbye and farewell? it's a romantic tragedy
all is fair in love and war and I'm the lonely casualty
your forked tongue has lost it's sharpness
it does'nt have the luster it used to before
sure it takes a lot of soul to forgive
so let me show you your way out of that door

you are a beautiful walking mistake and from you I have learned
how could someone so true be so fake? Now you're none of my concern

Chorus:
let go - you are nothing I deserve
o-oh - your acting's all but superb
let go - a romance for the deaf and blind
o-oh - with such poor taste and design

these calloused hands are shaking and I'm breathing heavily
soon all of this will be over shadows reaching out to me

sweet nothings in my ears now they disgust
those letters you've sent now gather dust
sure it takes a lot of soul to forgive
I'm dead with you and now I want to live

you are a beautiful walking mistake and from you I have learned
how could someone so true be so fake? Now you're none of my concern

Postlude:
and now this is the time and I cannot pretend
the day I live again is when our story ends

dramatic lies and severed ties in bloodstained cradles lay
despite the loss that bridge I'll cross come calm or storm what may
we drank the wine the undivine process of suicide
let it be known apart we've grown I gave you everything I own
and as you make your final exit I let our story slip away
I bury you with the memories of a forgotten yesterday

Ang ganda ng lyrics.. Ahee, nagandahan ako! Makaka-relate siguro ang mga broken hearted.. Ayan yung iniisip ko noon eh!

Ang mga bago kong links: [DizziNueve] [Jade] please pay a visit to their site!!!

DOPPSA

2006-11-29T21:25:00.000+08:00

Badtrip ka Reming

Pearl Shake: Rocky Road

Walang pasok bukas.. Masaya pero malungkot! S'yempre walang baon.. Hindi ko makakasama ang tropa.. Wala ako makakadal-dal-an.. At hindi ko makikita ang ZhingKoh koh! Pero higit sa lahat, hindi ko makikita bhaby ko at hindi kami magkakasabay! DOPPSA opening ngayong araw at ginanap siya sa school. Ang mga single na girls sa'min s'yempre naghahanap ng papa! Pero yung ibang taken na eh naghahanap pa rin! Tsk, tsk, tsk! Buti pa ako, hindi naghahanap kusang lumilitaw!! Ayun, ang nakita ko kaninang papable ay taga-Veritas.. Siya ang ZhingKoh koh.. #5 ng Veritas, si Ramas.. Wala lang.. gwapo siya for me although sa iba hindi.. Pero sorry kanya-kanyang opinyon yan.. Anyway ilang beses ko rin siya nakakasalubong.. Natatakot lang ako malaman na isa pala siyang..... "Baakkllaaa!" Pag nangyari yun, magwawala ako! Ayun opening nga ng DOPPSA kaya naman..

Cheer ako for SJA! at syempre para sa VERITAS,, Nanalo ang volleyball girls namin VS. uhmm,, nakalimutan ko eh,, Tapos ang volleyball boys din namin VS. MIPSS. Pero ang basketball boys namin VS. SAS, tambak.. Sana makabawi rin sila.. Hayy, kung hindi lang ako C.E. ngayon, nag-try out na sana ako para sa varsity team. Pero sa dahil hindi pa ito ang right time kaya sa college na lang ako magba-varsity.. Balak ko nga rin sumali sa cheerleading team kung sakali! Ang bhaby ko varsity naman siya ng Badminton ngayon. Proud na rin ako syempre para sa kanya! Bah! Magaling yun mag-Badminton! kilabot siya sa Badminton at magaling rin siya sa Basketball, Table Tennis.. Hayy lahat na nga yata halos nilalaro nung bhaby ko.. Sobrang athletic siya talaga! Halata naman kasi sa katawan pa lang! Pero wala siyang laro nagyon eh dahil singles lang daw at siya kasi doubles.. Maarte kasi! Ayaw sa singles gusto pa talaga nun may partner! May problema na naman kami kanina pero syempre naayos dahil sa remedial namin sa Geometry. Kung hindi hayy, mangiyak-ngiyak na naman ako dahil hindi kami magkakausap ng matagal kasi walang pasok bukas. Pero hindi nangyari!! Hindi ko matiis yun talaga. Sobrang mahal ko na nga siya talaga. Hayy.. Oh sige dito na lang ako! I would like to thank Lana para sa pagbisita sa blog ko. Siya kasi yung madalas nakikita kong nagta-tag sa tagboard kaya thank you! Sa mga Linkages ko at sa mga dumadaan, Thank you very much rin! Sana hindi kayo magsawa sa blog ko, sana hindi niyo kalimutan mag-drop by dito kapag online kayo! At ang pag-tag sa tagboard ha!! Huwag kalimutan oh kaya mag-comment man lang sa'king mga post na mapag-trip-an niyo basahin..

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Nga pala mag-a-appologize na din ako kung ngayong week madalang lang ako mag-tag sa tagboard niyo kasi syempre magbabagyo baka mamaya mawalan ng kuryente. Kaya ito nilulubos ko na yung pag-online.

Weekend Post.. (Nahuli Lang)

2006-11-27T19:56:00.000+08:00

needing a super hero

Monday- BestFriend DK is back.. And well, He is there again to be with me every dismissal.. Sad thing is hindi nagparamdam ang bhaby ko.. Uhmm.. I am sensing something.. And nung nagparamdam siya, may sakit pala siya.. Of course I got worried.. Who wouldn't be?

Tuesday- My Muscle Cramps Attacked again.. It is definitely painful.. But good thing, I can still walk.. During Recess AM I am so high, I feel so happy.. I keep on singing Aegis' Basang-basa sa Ulan and Halik.. Just for fun.. Before our recess I saw my crush!! I saw my "Little Joed" He is sooooooooo cuuuuttteeee!! Crush na crush ko siya talaga.. Nung unang kita ko pa lang dun crush ko na agad.. Tapos yung nakausap ko siya for the first time sa phone, grabe! super nahihiya ako dun! I can't believe na I'm blushing because of a sixer.. Kabata-bata pa ng crush ko! (Jazel.. Child abuse na yan!) Gosh!! Kapatid pa siya ng mahal ko.. Susme! Silang magkakapatid talaga lahat naging crush ko.. Ultimo pati kuya niya naging super duper crush ko nung sophomore ako?! Hayy nako.. Kaloka! Sa lahat ng crush ko ngayon... Si "Little Joed" ang pinaka crush ko talaga.. Ang cute-cute kasi parang yung kuya niya.. Kaso mas cute si "Little Joed" sa kuya niya.. Yung kuya niya gwapo lang.. Anyway, nung paakyat na kami sa room namin dahil bell na.. Napagtripan ko yung "Sinta" ng Aegis uli.. I was singing the: "Siiinngggtaammiiss ng wine" I keep on repeating that line then suddenly I touched my pocket I was looking for something which at first I didn't know.. I mean I touched my pocket without knowing what's the reason behind it.. Then I remember my necklace.. I felt so freaky because I cannot find it.. I thought it was in my bag, but It wasn't.. And we already looked for it at the school grounds, in the library and in the canteen- these are the places that I went when my necklace was still in my pocket.. We even asked to the school's prefect of discipline if someone had returned a necklace. But unfortunately no one had. When I got home, I am still thinking about it and I told it to my mom.. And,, well.. My mom spanked me for being so careless.. And damn! It hurts! But I can't blame my mom because that necklace is so expensive..(Maybe for others not because they are damn filthy rich) God! I'm losing my sanity because of my necklace.. I miss my necklace so much! I hope who ever finds it would have the heart to return it to me.. I hope so,..

Wednesday- Ang bhaby ko ay half-day lang! Umaga siya absent tapos hapon siya pumasok. Anyway tingin ko naman hindi siya pumasok para sa'kin.. Siguro hindi niya matiis makita yung crush niya.. Bayaan na nga natin siya. Ano nga ba ang unusual na nangyari? Well nung Arts time namin (before dismissal) ang mga loka-loka kong ka-group sa Arts para sa project aba naman! Nagsinungaling na naman about sa project! Hindi kasi kami makapasa! Unang alibi namin: Pakalat-kalat kaya nasama sa mga junk. Pangalawang alibi: (yung pangalawang meeting namin para sa pasahan) nagiihaw sila Chloe tapos ung kapatid niya ginawang pamaypay sa apoy yung project kaya nasunog. Pangatlong alibi: (sinita uli ang grupo namin ni Ms. nung sumunod na meeting) Natapunan ng tubig kaya basang-basa. Pero hindi ako kasama sa mga nagsinungaling, hindi ko kaya gawin sa mga teacher yun eh.. Lalo na yung sunod-sunod na pagsisinungaling. Dismissal time kasama ko ang mga kasabay ko sa uwian pati si DK.. nakita ko ang bhaby ko dumaan kaso nilagpasan ako tapos nakapasok na siya dun lang niya napansin na siya pala ang sinasabihan ko na "Ay dadaan na lang" sabi ba naman sa'kin.. hindi daw niya ako nakita.. tsk..tsk..tsk.. Ayoko na pag-usapan yung iba pang nangyari. Kahit medyo badtrip ako sa kanya masaya naman ako kasi kasama ko sila DK yung uwian. Nagtago pa kami sa alagad ng kuya ko kasi pag nakita ako pihadong mapagkakamalan na naman si DK na boyfriend ko.. Kasi nakita na nila ako kasama si DK noon at ang mga damuho! nagsumbong sa mama ko at sinabing may boyfriend na daw ako na matangkad! Kasama ko daw habang naghihintay sa sakayan.. Kami ng mga kasabay ko, si DK at Heizy ang lalakas ng tama kasi nga kung sinu-sino pinagtitripan kaya lang medyo nasira dahil sa alagad ng kuya ko. Pagkauwi ko ng bahay bigla na lang ako na-depress dahil sa bhaby ko.. At nagwala na ako.. Ilang oras din ako nagwala. Kaya ang aga-aga pa lang 9:07pm pa lang tulog na ako.. Which in my case is not normal syempre ang Insomnia ko. Sobrang sakit kasi ng mata ko, sobrang namamaga na sa kakaiyak sa kanya. Masama pa yung lagay ng right hand ko pati yung pakiramdam ko hindi maganda. Nabasa ko ung text niya around 10 something.. sabi niya: "elow" edi nag-gm ako para reply-an yung mga nagtext sa'ken.. Ang reply ko naman sa kanya: "Elow dn.. Pero gudnyt, matutulog na ako" Pagkatapos kong magawa yung gm sinend ko na tapos natulog na.. Kinaumagahan nabasa ko yung reply niya mukhang nainis sa text ko. Well, hindi naman ako masyado naburaot sa text niya, konti lang kasi siya na nga may kasalanan tapos siya pa maiinis sa'kin.. Sinabi niya nag-sorry daw siya pero ang totoo hindi siya ang nag-sorry kundi ang kaibigan niya. Sinabi niya hindi ko man lang pinakinggan ung explanations niya natanong ko tuloy sa sinabi niyang yun sa sarili ko "May dapat ba ako pakinggan eh ni isang salita para sa explanation wala ako narinig? Kanino ako makikinig? sa kaibigan niya? Bakit spokesperson niya ba un at hindi niya kaya magsalita para sa sarili niya?!"

Thursday- Nagising nga ako nung umaga at binabasa ang text niya pero ang sama-sama ng pakiramdam ko at mukhang may sakit ako nung oras na yun. Pero hindi ko na pinansin dahil aayusin ko na yung gulo sa'min, kakausapin ko siya.. Nung naliligo na ako bigla na lang ako napahagulgol dahil sa kanya. Naisip ko bakit ginaganun na niya ako? ano ba yung mali ko? hindi na ba siya masaya sa'kin? gusto na ba niyang wala na kami? bakit niya ako kinakawawa? bakit tini-take for granted na niya ako? sinabi ko nga sa sarili ko kahit sobrang mahal pa kita hindi pupwedeng ganito na lang lagi. Kaya ko magtiis pero hanggang kailan mo ako gusto magtiis? Bakit ikaw sinabi mo sa'kin kung ayaw kita mawala ipakita ko pero ako ni hindi mo nga sinabi yun. Siguro kaya mo nang wala ako sa buhay mo kaya ka ganyan. Siguro kaya mo ako ginaganito dahil alam mong mahal kita at hindi ko kayang mawala ka. Pero kung dapat na talagang maghiwalay tayo, hindi na ako tututol. Hindi na rin kasi kaya ng powers ko.. Pero sobrang mahal talaga kita.. Nung recess nagpunta ako ng clinic dahil nga sa sakit ko. Isang oras mahigit ako dun.. Pagkatapos nun bumalik na ako ng classroom at mukhang wala na akong sakit. Kaso, nung Ap time mukhang malapit na naman bumalik at nung English na namin bumalik na nga. Recess PM na at ang pinag-usapan namin ni Louise nung kinaumagahan na mag-usap ay hindi nangyari dahil sa kadahilanang mukhang wala naman siyang interes makinig sa sasabihin ko. Kaya pinabayaan ko na. Mag-isa lang naman ako bumaba halos kasi iniiwanan ako ng dalawa kong kasama.. Kaya naman nung nagbalik ako ng Medical Card iniwanan ko din sila at mukhang ako pa ang pinariringgan na "nang-iiwan siya" ni Louise.. Mangali-ngali akong batukan siya nung time na yun eh! Kasi naman ang galing niya magsabi ng ganun samantala siya nga nang-iiwan sa'kin! Sipain ko siya.. Pasalamat lang siya at wala ako sa mood para makipag-away dahil sa sakit ko.. Pero nung uwian na.. Hayy naku, hindi ko talaga matiis na kausapin siya.. Tingin niyo? Tama ba na lagi ako yung lalapit sa kanya para kausapin siya para maayos problem namin? (Pasagot naman)

Friday- Pumasok ako ng inaapoy ng lagnat.. Dahil may test sa AP at please!! Pray for me that I will pass!! God I'm praying hard for it! Ang teacher kasi namin malupit magbigay ng test sa AP.. Sana pasado ako.

Saturday- Party time!! Kahit may sakit ako hindi ko pa rin na-miss ang jamming namin ng iba kong kaklase! Nag-Star Mall kami tapos nag-Billiards! Well, bumalik na naman ang karunungan ko sa Billiards! Nung grade 5 kasi ako... Hindi naman sa pagmamayabang.. Natatalo ko kuya ko sa Billiards noon eh.. Madami na ako natalo sa Billiards nung younger years ko kaso natigil dahil nalulong ako sa WebDesigning and SkateBoarding.. Awa ng Diyos ang WebDesigning pa rin ang hindi ko nakakalimutan.. Siyanga pala nakalimutan ko i-mention na ang lagnat ko pala ay sobrang nakakaasar kasi pabalik-balik.. Ilang oras lang ako magaling tapos mamaya inaapoy na naman..

Sunday- Bumalik na naman sakit ko. At napansin ko nga pala ang dami ko nang Mosquito bites.. Hindi bale, hinihintay ko kasi magka-Dengue ako. Wala lang! Experience..

Nga pala.. I wanted you to meet my newest links: [cool_78] [Lana] [Monic] [Mr. Tuesday] [Zelie] Please visit them!!

Ngayon: Ako'y nagre-ready na para sa Periodical Test sa AP and Trigo.. Wish Me Luck! Waahh! Lalo na sa Trigo.. Hehehee

Di na ako makakapag-weekend post ngayon..

2006-11-19T01:01:00.000+08:00

pearl shake (choco mint flavor)

PDA 10^th expulsion night

naisip ko lang kung ano ba ang dapat ko ipopost ngayong araw.. hmm... at may naisip na ako!!

"Nursery-Present Na Kalokohan ko sa School".. Yan ang naisip kong ipopost ko.. Ahee.. Di ko pa naman nakakalimutan lahat ng kalokohan ko ehh.. Ako pa! Certified na hindi makalimot tuwing may kalokohan ako at syempre maaari bang wala ako ka-kuntsaba sa mga kalokohan ko? Syempre! Nanjan yata ang bez ko na si Nikka para samahan ako sa Kalokohan..

Nursery- Kalokohan ba yung lagi ko katabi ang "crush" ko na si Vincent? Ahee, basta lagi kami magkatabi nun ehh,, Di kami mapaghiwalay! Parang mag-asawa na kami ehh.. Pero may kabit din ako.. Oh, ang ganda ko diba? Syempre nandyan din si Michael da tisoy kapag wala si Vincent da tsinoy.. Kasi binibilhan niya kami ng makakain sa recess kaya naiiwan ako sa classroom .. Ang ga-gwapo nga ng "asawa" ko at "boyfriend" ko eh!
(di pala kalokohan ito.. Kalandian pala!) And proud naman ako!

Kinder- Ah well, kami ni Joan (ang dati kong ka-tropa na nasa Spain na yata) naghahanap kami ng butas kung saan may daga tapos yung butas babatuhin namin ng mga baon naming tinapay.. Para saan? Syempre para lalo dumami mga daga sa classroom at nang wala na papasok sa room at pag hindi kami pumasok edi hindi kami maiihi sa upuan namin sa takot na makurot ni Mrs. Garcia (ang aming adviser)

Prep- Hmm.. marami ako kalokohan dito!! 1) Nakipag-resbakan ako sa loko-lokong classmate ko na si Ronald.. Loko pala siya eh! Ako pa napili niya awayin! Ganito kasi yun, sinipa niya ako kaya ang ginawa ko sa kanya sinabunutan siya at ngingud-ngod ang pagmumukha sa mesa niya.. Tapos ayun sapakan na kami.. syempre ako di papatalo!! [bah! Kahit babae ako wag niya ako maliitin dahil kakaiba ako! Babaeng-Lalaki yata ako nun ehh] {pero hindi naman ako tomboy talaga.. Ugaling lalaki lang talaga ako nung time na yun}At dahil nga sa wala ang guro namin eh tuloy lang kami sa away.. Tapos bigla pumasok si titser at ako naman bigla iyak.. Bakit? Syempre award-winning actress ako kaya naman ginamit ko ang abilidad ko. Dahil sa pag-inarte ko dumating pa sa point na hahampasin na si Ronald ng guro namin ng mop! At syempre siya lang nadala sa Principal's Office.. Ako kasi kinampihan ng mga kaklase ko eh. Maria Clara ako pero kapag ginalit.. Incredible Hulk toh.. 2) Nagperiodical test kami at syempre medyo feel ko na di ako papasa kahit ni-review ako ni mama.. Kaya naman ang ginawa ko habang nagtetest nilabas ko yung papel na may sagot at dahil nasa harapan ako, naka-bingo ako! At dahil dun, kinuha ng titser ko yung test paper ko pero wala lang sa'kin yun noh! Kaso yung papel na yung kinuha at pinunit dun ako naiyak..! Syempre pinaghirapan ng mama ko i-sulat tapos pupunitin lang! Ang sakit nun diba?! Pero syempre hindi ako dinala sa Principal's Office.. Ako pa! Malakas ako sa titser ko! 3) Dahil nga sa Maria Clara ako, aba naman! Pumapasok ako na ang palda ko sumasayad na sa semento. Kaya naman ako'y nasita dahil sa kahabaan ng palda ko at wala daw kami sa panahon ni Maria Clara. Ayaw ko nga ipa-tabas kaso pag hindi ko ginawa.. Papa-ban ako sa school. ang dami ko kalokohan nung prep ako noh?

Grade One- Wala naman ako kalokohan.. Ang masasabi ko lang eh ang pwede ko maging kalokohan ay yung LAGI ako late.. Syempre late din ako matulog eh! Dahil ganun na talaga ako! Nagsisimula na ang insomnia ko..

Grade Two- Wala akong maalala kundi ang pabago-bago kong isip para sa performance ng Manang Biday.. gusto ko maging kasali sa taga-kanta ng Manang Biday pero nasa-shy ako. Kaya ayun, naloloka si Ms. Vecino sa'kin..

Grade Three- Ang pangngangatwiran kong nakakaloka kay Raymond (Ang pinaka matalino sa batch namin). Sa "kagalingan" ko daw sa spelling kaya napili ako para maging contestant sa quiz bee. 4 kaming contestant: Ako, Bez Emily, Ralph at Tanya. Group A ako.. Group B si Ralph at Group D naman si Bez Emily tapos si Tanya Group C. Si Raymond ang naatasan para tawagin ang mga contestant sa quiz bee para magpractice daw. Malas niya dahil ako nakausap niya nung natapat siya sa room namin. At ito ang conversation namin:

Raymond: Sino yung contestant niyo para sa spelling bee?
Jazel: Ah, yun ba? Teka tawagin ko lang ah! Ralph! Ralph!
(Habang hindi pa lumalapit si Ralph, syempre nakipagtsikahan ako kay Raymond)
J: Para saan, kaya mo tinatawag si Ralph?
R: May practice daw para sa Quiz bee.
J: Bakit si Ralph lang? Pa'no ako? Contestant din ako pati si Emily at Tanya? paano naman kami? Wala ba kaming practice..?
R: Meron, ngayon nga yung practice..
J: Eh Spelling B lang diba kailangan? Eh ako kasi Spelling A.. tapos Si Emily spelling D naman at si Tanya spelling C.. paano yan?
R: Kasama kayo (lumapit na yung iba pang 3 contestant)
J: Hindi nga pwede, kasi Spelling A ako..
Emily: Spelling D ako
Tanya: Spelling C naman ako
R: Pwede yan, sama na lang kayo..
J: Oh sige, sasama na lang kami. Pero kapag napagalitan kami, sagot mo kami! Spelling A kasi ako eh.. baka magalit si Tr. Bong

Basta hanggang sa pagbaba puro Spelling A pa din ako. At nung tapos na ang Quiz Bee, malapit na yung end of school year, may pinalagay ang titser ko sa scrap box at binasa ko.. "Spelling Bee" at bigla ko na lang naalala ang nakakaloka kong pakikipag-debate kay Raymond.. Akala ko naman, "B" as in letter "B" yun pala.. "Bee" pala yun as in Quiz Bee.. Grabe! Biglaan tuloy ako nag-blush pagkabasa ko nun.. Nakakahiya kasi kay Raymond! 2) Katangahan: Nabalian ako sa left arm dahil sa pagsi-see saw ko sa sportsfield. Kaya eto, hanggang ngayon nandito pa rin ang bakas na naiwan sa buto ko nung mabalian ako. Sumasakit pa-minsan-minsan.. Syempre misplaced na eh!

Grade Four- Behave ako nung grade four eh! Ang naaalala ko lang.. Yung pinatabas kong palda nung prep ako ay nagmistulang mini-skirt na nung sinusuot ko ng grade 4. Syempre, nagpalit na lang ako ng new uniform namin.. Yung de-jumper na!

Grade Five- Eto na!! Pinagsama ba naman kaming mga loka-loka?! Kami nila Emily! Pero syempre, walang tatalo sa tandem namin ng Bez Nikka ko noh! 1) Gate Pass.. Dahil hindi ako naka-gate pass.. Tinakas ako nila Nikka.. ngunit kami ay natiklo ni mamang guard. Resulta: Principal's Office at ang pinaka magandang award, may record na kami sa diary ni Principal.. Minor Offense lang daw! Pag inulit, nako.. Suspendido na kami! 2) May letter sender kasi ako noon. Crush niya kasi ako.. Kaya araw-araw may sulat ako. One time, recess AM yun.. may binigay na sulat at binasa ko.. Binasa rin ng tropa (Nikka, Fay, Janica, Elaine Marie, Elaine Gayle) dahil medyo malapit kami sa basurahan.. Pagkatapos nilang basahin ay kina-rumple nila yung letter at pinagpunit-punit at tinapon sa basurahan! Tiyempong nandun yung letter sender,, So syempre it hurts! Pero natawa lang ang tropa yung nakita siya.. Yun daw nababagay sa kanya. Ang corny daw niya.. 3) Mawawala ba sa barkadahan namin ang mga pangtitrip sa mga tao?! tsk.. wala sila kasalanan sa'min.. Ang kasalanan lang nila sila ang napag-piyestahan ng mata namin! Kahit mga teacher hindi nakaligtas sa kagaguhan namin eh!

Grade Six- Ang natatangi kong hiling ay natupad.. CDO ako.. Campus Disciplinarian Officer.. Well, matino lang ako kapag nasa paligid si Ms. Janey.. Pero kapag nakatalikod na, aba! Hawa na ako sa kalokohan nila Regy, Ed and Mapy! Kaloka kasi sila eh! Kulet-kulet! Lakas trip talaga kapag kasama sila! lalo naman kapag nakakausap ko si Regy every morning dahil nagtitipon-tipon kaming mga CDO.. aba! Kaming dalawa pinagtitripan kung sino-sino.. Kahit yung principal! Mga issue nga eh! CDO pa ako nun ah! dapat magsilbi daw kaming role model sa ka-batch namin at sa mga young ones pero ang ugali namin! Mga gago na! A. Mga kalokohan as CDO: 1) Yung pinaayos kami ni Ms. Juanita (Janey) ng gym para sa teacher's day.. Ang mga lobo pinaglalaruan namin, kapag naputok na.. Patay-malisya kami! Kunware basta-basta na lang pumutok. 2) Nag-uusap kami na parang wala siya sa harap namin. Habang nagsasabi rin siya ng mga gagawin namin.. Lagi namin sinasabi: "Mag-isa kang mag-decor ng gym noh! Kaya mo na yan! Kaw pa! Mas malakas pa sa horsepower yang lakas mo" 3) Pagbubuhat ng bag ng mga grade 3 and 4.. nagpapasahan kami kung sino magbubuhat ng pamatay na stroller ng mga bata hanggang sa nakaakyat na sila na buhat-buhat ang stroller nila, nagpapasahan pa din kami. 4) Pang-ti-trip sa mga batang lumalabag sa batas:
"No I.D., dadalhin ka na namin sa Principal's Office.. Tara na"
"Oh! Nag-littering ka! Huling-huli ka! Ano pangalan mo?!"
"Tumatakbo ka, bawal yan.. I.D. mo ilabas mo. Bilisan mo at ako'y naiinip na"
5) Honest Pupils' Board.. Syempre minsan binababoy namin. 6) Pag-aagawan sa Angelus.. 7) Turuan na kung sino magsasalita sa mic tuwing flag ceremony.. 8) Kapag napagalitan, turuan na kung sino ang pinuno. 9) Agawan sa pagpindot ng bell. 10) Nagii-stay ng matagal tuwing umaga para hindi maka-attend ng first subject. 11) Pagiingay sa assigned place na babantayan.. nagsasabi kami ng "Keep Quiet" pero kami ang maingay syempre! B. Syempre, kasama ko pa din ang Bez Nikka ko at Bez Emily pati Rochelle kaya loka-loka talaga! C. F4 madness.. mas pinagtuunan ko pa yung F4 kesa sa pag-aaral. D. Pag tulog ko sa klase. E. Ang JAVA TWINS.. tsk,tsk,tsk.. kawawa sila sa'min ng Bez Nikka ko. F. Javalina and Javanista tawag namin ni Len-Len sa Java Twins.. G. Asawa ko si Ken Zhu! Nung nawalan ako ng wallet kahit bagong bili lang.. Mas naiyak ako hindi sa perang laman kundi dahil andun ang picture ni Ken Zhu na nakalaminated pa.

First Year- Ay nako! Magkaklase kami ng Bez Nikka ko at talaga namang mga sira-ulo talaga kami! Napagti-tripan namin kung sino-sino lang eh! Kahit sinong gusto naming pag-tripan walang liligtas! 1) Yung seatmate ko si Neil, ginawan namin ng "baller" si Mcgyver gamit ang ballpen habang patawa-tawa pa.. Kaya naman napagalitan kami ni Ms. Bautista dahil sa ingay. Tapos nag-minus pa ang lola! pero yung iba na yung nag-iingay wala lang sa kanya! Asar na asar kami dun nung umalis yun! Halos gusto naming habulin ng walis tambo! 2) Kopyahan sa Math Quiz 3) Hindi namin pinakikinggan ang sinasabi ng adviser namin. 3) Yung nakuha na namin ang intrams t-shirt namin.. Yung una aztigin sa harapan pero pag dating sa likod nagreklamo na ako! "Ang pangit naman nitong DOMINIQUERS! sa'n bang lupalop nakuha ang word na ito? DOMINICANS tanggap ko pa pero ito?? Ang baho ng salitang toh! Pangit pa pagkaka-lettering! Pantay-pantay pa talaga! Walang patawad! Walang ka-design-design ang sulat! Ang panget! Panira 'tong dominiquers na 'to!" Yun pala, may haka-haka na adviser ko ang may sala sa nirereklamo ko..

Second Year- Meron ba? Behave ako eh! (totoo ba?!) Pero masaya ako at mahal na mahal ko sila! (Miss you guys!! mwahh!!) 1) Mga target victims sa platform.. a) Mrs. Inocencio - nalaglag na nga siya, nakatanga lang kami at may gana pa kaming magtanong ng: "Ms. ok ka lang?" b) Mrs. Morales nung malaglag siya.. Marami rumescue. c) Ms. Bautista ito talaga ang pinupuntirya ni Jesus! Grabe! Kulet niya talaga! Pero hindi matupad ang balak dahil daw sa mala-troso niyang binti.. 2) Mga panggagaya sa boses ng teacher 3) Mga panggagaya sa kilos ng mga teacher courtesy of Jesus. 4) Animo'y may libing after ng Music class namin. 5) Lagi kami nasasabihan na kami daw pinakamaingay.. Pero syempre labas lang sa kabiang tenga yun.. Lagi namang ganun eh! Pero sa ibang section ganun din sinasabi.. Hayy.. basta dami kalokohan section ko nung second year pero ayos lang! Mahal ko naman sila eh..

Third Year- Hmm.. As of now? Ang kalokohan ko lang naman ay ang pang-iimbento ng mga dialogues ng mga taong nakikita kong nagsasalita.. Kahit titser pinagtripan ko na! At syempre.. ang current kong "kinababaliwan" ngayon.. My HouseBand, My Labie Davs... Allan..

Ehee.. Yan ang mga kalokohan ko.. Sa ibang pagkakataon ko na maku-kwento yung iba.. In the meantime.. Hindi yata ako makakapag-weekend post.. Dami ko gagawin ehh.. Gue.. hanggang dito na lang!! Waah! Newest link ko si [Marhgil] please visit his blog :)

WeekEnd Post

2006-11-12T23:20:00.000+08:00

Doll Master

Monday
Hayy, this day was so sad for me because I wasn't able to see my bhaby.. Because Recollection nila. Tapos nag-away pa kami nung Linggo.. Hayy.. I am so sad this day.. miss na miss ko nga siya ehh.. Kasi umaga ko lang siya nakita. Tapos dun sa classroom namin I keep on thinking about her kasi hindi ko alam kung ano na nangyayari sa kanya dun.. Hayy naku.. Halos mabaliw nga ako sa kakaisip sa mahal ko.. Tapos sad ako kasi wala man lang ako nalaman sa Recollection niya, Hindi siya nagtext.. Kasi siguro feel niya war kami! Hayy, di naman medyo lang.. Pero siyempre dapat naman nagparamdam siya para naman diba mapanatag ako.. At para naman hindi ako masyado mag-worry at kahit paano eh hindi ako sobrang maka-miss dun.. Grabe! Gustong-gusto ko pa naman siya i-hug. Nung day before our Reco. past 3aM (malapit na nga mag-4am) na ako natulog gumawa pa ako ng Reco letters tapos gumawa ako ng yellow teddy bear para sa bhaby ko kaso hindi ko na lang ibinigay..

Tuesday
This is my Recollection day with my dearest St. Maximilian Kolbe or Belokz as our familia thought. It was a very happy day for me because ang saya ng Reco namin.. Nagkaroon ako ng mga lessons about life.. Although halos mahimatay ako sa nakita ko dun sa malapit sa conference room papuntang CR.. grabe na ito. Hindi ko matanggap ang nakita ko parang gusto ko kasi tumakbo palayo. Pero syempre ayaw ko na isipin pa yun.. Ang mahalaga yung mga naging activities namin sa Reco. ang saya-saya eh.. Especially nung pagpili ng PERSONAL FRIEND at ang napili ko ay no other than my buttercup Trixzy.. Eh kasi naman siya talaga nalalapitan ko sa lahat. Hindi ko pa siya bestfriend but I really trust her at ang turing ko sa kanya parang close na sa bestfriend. Tapos yung nilapitan ko lahat ng mga close friends ko.. Including syempre mga bestfriend ko at ang tropa ko.. At saka si Colynne na dati kong bestfriend. I felt so light at that moment. Nakapag-thank you ako sa bestfriend kong si DK. Syempre lahat sila niyakap ko kahit si DK. Wala namang malisya yun eh syempre bestfriend ko yun kaya wala lang sa'min at saka alam talaga ng Belokz kung gaano kami ka-close ng chuvakel na si DK. Alam nilang mag-best friend kami nun eh! Pero syempre kasi miss na miss ko na bhaby ko at talagang nangungulila na ako sa pinakamamahal kong bhaby! Nga pala yung mga pics nung reco di ko pa mailalagay! Nakakabadtrip kasi 'tong mga pinanggagawa ko! siguro sa next ko na lang siya ilalagay..

Wednesday
Hayy nako wala namang usual. Hindi lang kami nagpapansinan ng bhaby ko . Miss na miss ko na siya.

Thursday
Nagimbal ako sa nalaman ko!!! Hayy.. super nainis ako. Tapos iniwanan pa ako ng bhaby ko ang sakit nun!! Sobrang namiss ko siya tapos iniwanan lang niya ako dun sa isang tabi! Kaya sumama na lang ako sa tropa kong si Julie kasi iniwanan niya ako. Pero nung Geometry masaya ako kasi ang ganda ng laro namin! Grabe! I love it! Ganda ng grade ko sa Geometry kasi pangalawa kami sa pinaka mataas at pinakamagaling!!

Friday
Dios ko po! Wala kaming ginawa buong araw! Halos!! Ay meron pala! Nagtupi kami sa section ng mahal ko! Kaloka toh! Nakakahiya! Ang daldal ko kasi!! Hahahaa! Pero ayos lang masaya ako dahil nakatulong ako sa teacher namin sa Geometry. Tapos judgement day. Pero as usual na-miss ko bhaby ko kahit may feeling ako na may kasalanan siya sa'kin.

Saturday
MonthSary namin ng mahal kong bhaby. Kaso ang masakit dun nag-away lang kami. Tapos ang bad-bad ko sa kanya! Mga pinagsasabi ko! Pero naayos namin ng konti pero malamig na siya pero hihintayin ko kung kailan uli kami magiging ok. Pero sabi ko globe muna ako para hindi kami mag-away. Pumayag siya. (Ayoko na i-kwento lahat.. sobra na yun hahahaa!)

Sunday (Ngayon)
Grabe! Nagising ako na malungkot tapos bigla na lang ako umiyak kasi bakit ganun na nangyayari sa'min ng bhaby ko? Tapos ayun bigla ko na-realize lahat!! Lahat ng mali ko!! Ayoko talaga mawala bhaby ko eh! Mamamatay yata ako kapag nawala siya! Hayy.. Pero as I type this entry kinikilig ako! kasi naman bumabalik na unti-unti bhaby ko! Basta masaya na ako. At siya nga pala ako'y magpapakabaet na sa bhaby ko pati sa studies.. Nalampasan na namin ang 7th month sana naman no! Medyo mag-cool down na kami sa away. At saka sabi ko sa bhaby ko hindi na nga ang maggo-globe kasi hindi ko siya kayang iwan sa ganung sitwasyon at sobra ko na kaya siyang na-miss para iwanan pa siya! At hindi na ako aalis sa tabi ng mahal ko! Kaya ayun hindi ko na siya talaga iiwan. At!! Well, nagko-compose ako ng kanta para sa mahal kong si Mhaan!

Nga pala I've added these links! [Tatie] [Katia] [Astrid]
Please visit them!!

I'm so in love to my bhaby

^I'd Rather have bad times with you^ +sleep na ako+

Sad? Happy? Confused? (whatta c'mon!)

2006-11-01T03:34:00.001+08:00

now playing: Tattoed On My Mind

Today, I'm feeling alright na!! Parang wala na yata sakit ko at nakuha ko pang magpunta ng 7eleven ehh!! Bumili ako ng slurpee and chocolate pero hindi ko kinain kasi baka magalit yung bhaby ko.. Speaking of my bhaby miss ko na siya! (T_T) Haii nako.. badtrip ako! hindi dapat ganito yung ipo-post ko eh! Mahaba na eh! Ang tanga ko kasi! Ang napindot kong button "no"! Asarrrrrrrrr!!!!!!! Todo emote pa naman ako kanino! hmmmmmffff! Badtrip din kasi yung mouse namin eh! May sariling utak! bwiset! Anyway, hindi dapat ako magluksa!! Bago na ang layout ko!! Cute ba? Anyway may ise-share lang akong pic! ala lang! Pic. namin ng pusa ko! I love Rima (the cat's name)!

.:Jazel and Rima:.

I look like a scumbag there! Duhh!! Ang dilim kasi! Kahit may sakit ako nakipag-picture-an pa ako sa kuting namin! I was thinking of saying goodbye to my uni.cc account! Wala lang! Pero baka di ko gawin! wala ako masabi ngayon! Nabura na kasi ang supposed entry ko! I feel so na rin eh! Bukas na lang este mamaya! Plug ko lang si Sakura (Yanie) and Reesha my newest links! Please visit their blog kiez?! Before I go I would like to thank Peachylicious.net for the emoticons I used for this entry! So 'til here na lang folks! Mamaya na yung iba!

Too Sick..

2006-10-30T01:58:00.000+08:00

Today I was sent to the doctor because of my sickness.. I have a fever then awhile ago (around 4pm) I with bits of blood.. (ewww) because of that I was sent to the doctor.. The doctor told me I have to be tame or else I will get TB. In my mind I said "sounds great!!" but kidding aside I am afraid too! Of course! I might die because of that and I can't take it!! So I just behave here now but I'm not yet resting because my Insomnia strikes again.. I was so thankful that I had the chance to go to church.. (thank God!) Anyway, I feel like I really feel the spinning of the Earth (hope you get me what I meant) I wanted to sleep but duhhh!! Insomnia really makes this hard for me! uhhgg! but even though I'm not feeling well.. I feel ok!! because I knew many people worried and loved me so much that's why they are telling me to behave and get well soon! I hope I will!! Anyway I'm working out on my newest layout!! I'm revamping!! Just wait and see!! I'm excited on how will my new layout would look like!! I miss my bhaby!! I miss bhaby! I just hope my bhaby misses me too. (sigh) Anyway I got some article on Yahoo Health about my two sicknesses: Insomnia and HeartBurn. I will search for my other sickness on some time!! And so here are the articles

HeartBurn:

Heartburn is a feeling of burning, warmth, heat, or pain that often starts in the upper abdomen just beneath the lower breastbone (sternum). This discomfort may spread in waves upward into your throat, and you may have a sour taste in your mouth. Heartburn is sometimes called indigestion, acid regurgitation, sour stomach, or pyrosis. It is not caused by problems with your heart, although sometimes heart problems can feel like heartburn. See an illustration of heartburn.

Heartburn may cause problems with swallowing, burping, nausea, or bloating. These symptoms can sometimes last up to 2 hours or longer. In some people, heartburn symptoms may cause sleep problems, a chronic cough, asthma, wheezing, or choking episodes.

Heartburn usually is worse after eating or made worse by lying down or bending over. It gets better if you sit or stand up.

Almost everyone will have troubles with heartburn now and then.

Heartburn occurs more frequently in adults than in children. Many women have heartburn every day when they are pregnant. This is because the growing uterus puts increasing upward pressure on the stomach.

Symptoms of heartburn and symptoms of a heart attack may feel the same. Occasionally, a person may dismiss serious symptoms as "just gas or indigestion." If you have a history of heart problems or risk factors for a heart attack, your heartburn symptoms may indicate a more serious problem and need to be checked by your doctor.

Dyspepsia is a medical term that is used to describe a vague feeling of fullness, gnawing, or burning in the chest or upper abdomen, especially after eating. A person may describe this feeling as "gas." Other symptoms may occur at the same time, such as belching, rumbling noises in the abdomen, increased flatus, poor appetite, and a change in bowel habits. Causes of dyspepsia can vary from minor to serious.

Causes of heartburn
Heartburn occurs when food and stomach juices back up (reflux) into the esophagus, which is the tube that leads from the throat to the stomach. This process is called gastroesophageal reflux. Common causes of reflux include:

Incomplete closing of the valve (the lower esophageal sphincter, or LES) between the esophagus and the stomach.
Foods and drinks, such as chocolate, peppermint, fried foods, fatty foods, or sugars; and coffee, carbonated drinks, or alcohol. Once heartburn occurs, the backflow of stomach juices can cause the esophagus to become sensitive to other foods, such as citrus fruits, tomatoes, spicy foods, garlic, and onions. Eating these foods may cause more heartburn.
Pressure on the stomach caused by obesity, frequent bending over and lifting, tight clothes, straining with bowel movements, vigorous exercise, and pregnancy.
Smoking and use of other tobacco products.
Prescription and nonprescription medicines, such as aspirin, ibuprofen, prednisone, iron, potassium, or antihistamines.
A hiatal hernia, which occurs when a small portion of the stomach pushes upward through the diaphragm, which is the muscle that separates the lungs from the abdomen.
Stress, which can increase the amount of acid your stomach makes and cause your stomach to empty more slowly.
Severity of heartburn
Mild heartburn occurs about once a month. Moderate heartburn occurs about once a week.

Severe heartburn occurs every day and can cause problems such as trouble swallowing, bleeding, or weight loss. Heartburn with other symptoms, such as hoarseness, a feeling that food is stuck in your throat, tightness in your throat, a hoarse voice, wheezing, asthma, dental problems, or bad breath, may be caused by a more serious problem, such as gastroesophageal reflux disease (GERD). A persistent inflammation of the lining of the esophagus occurs in GERD and can lead to other health problems. Heartburn may also be related to an infection with Helicobacter pylori (H. pylori) bacteria.

Persistent heartburn symptoms can be a sign of a more serious medical condition, such as severe inflammation of the esophagus or cancer of the stomach or esophagus.

Heartburn is more serious when it occurs with abdominal pain or bleeding.

Abdominal pain, especially pain located directly below the breastbone, may be a sign of more serious problems, such as heart disease, peptic ulcer disease, gallbladder disease, a tear in the esophagus, or inflammation of the stomach (gastritis). For more information, see the topics Abdominal Pain, Age 11 and Younger or Abdominal Pain, Age 12 and Older.
Vomiting of blood may indicate bleeding in the digestive tract, often from the esophagus or stomach. If you have bleeding in the esophagus, stomach, or part of the small intestine attached to the stomach (duodenum), stools may be dark red or black and tarry. Large amounts of bleeding can lead to shock, a life-threatening condition. For more information, see the topic Nausea and Vomiting, Age 4 and Older.
Heartburn in children
Almost all babies spit up, especially newborns. Spitting up decreases once the muscles of the esophagus, which is the muscular tube that connects the throat to the stomach, become more coordinated. This process can take as little as 6 months or as long as 1 year. Spitting up is not the same thing as vomiting. Vomiting is forceful and repeated. Spitting up may seem forceful but usually occurs shortly after feeding, is effortless, and causes no discomfort.

Children who vomit frequently after eating during the first 2 years of life have increased chances of having heartburn and reflux problems, such as GERD, later in life. Children with reflux problems also have increased chances of other problems, such as sinusitis, laryngitis, asthma, pneumonia, and dental problems. For more information, see the topic Vomiting, Age 3 and Younger.

Treatment
The treatment of heartburn depends on how severe your heartburn is and what other symptoms you have. Home treatment measures and medicines that you can buy without a prescription usually will relieve mild to moderate heartburn. It is important to see your doctor if heartburn occurs frequently and home treatment does not relieve your symptoms.

Insomnia:

What is insomnia?

Insomnia is an inability to sleep well. It's a common problem, affecting almost everyone at one time or another. A person with insomnia may have difficulty falling asleep or staying asleep, wake up frequently during the night, or wake up earlier than desired the next morning, resulting in symptoms such as daytime fatigue, irritability, poor memory, loss of productivity, and decreased enjoyment of family and social life.

Most people have an occasional restless night, often related to short-term stress. For some people, however, poor-quality sleep is a recurring or even a lifelong problem. Temporary insomnia, lasting days to weeks, affects about 50% of adults. 1 Insomnia that lasts more than 6 weeks may affect up to 10% to 15% of adults. 2

What causes insomnia?

Temporary insomnia, which can last anywhere from a night or two up to several weeks, may be caused by:

A single stressful event.
A period of emotional stress.
Illness.
Temporary pain or discomfort.
Disturbances in the sleeping environment, such as noise, light, or sleeping in a different bed.
A change in the normal sleep pattern, such as might be caused by jet lag or working a late shift.
Temporary insomnia usually resolves in less than a month. But it's important to pay attention to it since excessive daytime sleepiness can have serious consequences, such as accidents while driving or at work. Also, temporary insomnia can develop into chronic poor-quality sleep, particularly if you begin to worry about your inability to sleep.

Chronic insomnia can last months or even years, and may be caused by:

Mental or emotional conditions, such as depression or anxiety, or stress. These are the leading causes of insomnia in adults. 3
Poor sleep habits, such as watching television in bed or keeping an irregular bedtime schedule, or apprehension or excessive worry about falling asleep, which often plagues people with insomnia. 4
An underlying medical condition such as a breathing problem, heart condition, hormonal or digestive disorder, or chronic pain.
Use of stimulants such as tobacco and caffeine.
Alcohol use.
Lack of regular physical activity. 5
Prescription, nonprescription, or illegal drugs.
A different sleep disorder, such as sleep apnea.
It is important to talk with your health professional about your sleep patterns and to have any health problem or sleep disorder diagnosed and, if necessary, treated. Insomnia can contribute to depression, automobile and industrial accidents, loss of jobs, marital and social problems, increased alcohol consumption, and poor health.

What are the symptoms?

The symptoms of insomnia vary. You may have difficulty falling asleep, so you may toss and turn for what seems like a long time. You may wake up and have trouble falling back to sleep, perhaps several times during the night. You may wake up too early and feel unrefreshed in the morning or tired or irritable during the day.

How is insomnia diagnosed?

Insomnia is not a disease, and no specific test can diagnose it. But since an inability to sleep well is often related to an underlying cause, your doctor will probably assess your current health, medical history, and any medications you may be taking.

A physical exam, blood tests (which may include thyroid testing or hormonal testing for menopause), and, in some cases, sleep studies may be done to help identify or rule out medical problems that may be causing the insomnia. Your insomnia may improve or disappear when the underlying cause is treated.

Your doctor may also ask you about your sleep history: how well you sleep, how long you sleep, bedtime habits, and any unusual behaviors. You may be asked to keep a sleep diary, which is a record of your sleep patterns for a week or two. If your symptoms point to mental health concerns, you may be assessed by a mental health professional.

How is it treated?

Treatment for insomnia focuses on the cause of your inability to sleep well. If you have an underlying medical problem such as chronic pain, a breathing problem, or a digestive disorder, treating the problem successfully will usually allow better sleep.

You may be able to treat your insomnia with minor lifestyle and behavioral changes such as setting a regular bedtime, waking at the same time each day, not using caffeine or alcohol for several hours before bedtime, or getting regular exercise. Avoiding daytime naps also may be helpful.

Medications may sometimes be needed to help induce sleep. They are commonly prescribed for short-term use if other treatment isn't working. They should not be the primary treatment over the long term and should always be combined with lifestyle and behavioral changes.

Who is affected by insomnia?

Insomnia can affect people at any stage in life. One recent study reported that about 1 out of 5 children has insomnia. 6 It is more common in women and older people. About 45% of seniors are affected by sleeping difficulties, and up to 14% use sleeping pills. 7

Sleep patterns also change as you get older, and many older adults sleep less than younger adults. It may be harder to get to sleep, and your sleep may not be as deep. Health problems and medicines can also affect how much or how well you sleep. But having trouble getting to sleep or not sleeping well is not normal, no matter what your age. If you are having trouble sleeping, discuss it with your doctor at your next checkup.

Well, I learned something from them.. I just posted it so that everyone would know how I feel and maybe there are some of you who wants to know about these too. So I hope it did a help to you! Xoxo!!

Post For Oct. 28,2006

2006-10-29T13:12:00.000+08:00

Ayan.. My entry for today are the tests na kinuha ko sa tickle..

Here are the tests:

Celeb. Soulmate:

Your celebrity soul mate is someone who's Indie

You're probably not one to take the path most traveled. In fact, an independent spirit like you would much rather carve out your own special niche. So it's only natural that your romantic match would be required to do the same.

Someone who's unique, intelligent, maybe a bit serious and brooding is right for the part. An indie actor like Johnny Depp seems best suited for that role. And it only makes sense that you'd rather have your rendezvous at places that are under the radar — just like you! So, keep making your own waves in the world. The awards and accolades are sure to follow for you and your celeb soul mate! And even if you don't live in the same reality as your celebrity soul mate, you can still meet someone who's indie close to home. So get moving!

What Exhilarates You:

Living Life to the Fullest Exhilarates You

Like your signature scent, you're fresh, vibrant, and full of life. Always able to see the best in everyone and everything, you take the time to enjoy the small things and have a knack for making any moment feel special.

Friendly and fun-loving, you can charm strangers and acquaintances alike with your easygoing ways. You're a hit at parties, whether you're entertaining a crowd with witty stories or having an intimate conversation in the corner. And then there's that dance floor you're not afraid to tear up. Sound exhilarating? You are!

Who is you mom match celeb:

Your movie mom match is My Big Fat Greek Wedding's Maria Portokalos

Maria Portokalos may not have been the focus of the movie, but that's the only way she would have had it. You, like Maria, are the backbone of your family, but you do it without ever wanting to be the center of attention. You know what we're talking about — your kids always seek out your well-thought-out and sincere advice, and your husband knows who really wears the pants in your house.

You consider motherhood a delicate balancing act — you're strong and tough when necessary, but it's tempered with love and respect. Fiercely loyal, you always act with your family's best interest at heart. And that's just the way you want it.

What kind of adventure you have:

Your best adventures are Unexpected Endeavors

Checking out a new art exhibit, catching a baseball game, or just picnicking in the park — who knows where you'll find yourself next? You are an adventurer in the truest sense — spontaneous and flexible with a passion for trying new places and things.

With your easygoing nature, you are the quintessential road tripper. No maps, no plan, no timelines. You'd rather let the road take you wherever it may lead. North, south, east, or west — your inner compass has no limits. So give it a spin and let it decide where your next adventure will be!

What Kind Of goddess are you:

You're Siren!

Like the beautiful sea mermaids who've swum before you, Siren, you certainly have a way of drawing people in. Whether wooing a crush with your alluring voice or impressing someone with your unique take on the world, you're sure to captivate more than your share of audiences.

It must be the balance between your glittering personality and your individual style that keeps friends and family enamored by your presence. From being able to predict next season's "it" color to pairing leopard print with plaid before it hits the pages of Vogue, people see you as a fashion goddess. You may not want to admit it, but you're part trendsetter and people look to you for direction.

Of course, you know there's more to life than shopping for the latest adorable accessory. You pursue success in all aspects of life — from offering creative insights at work to running marathons. You have big dreams, Siren, and by keeping them in sharp focus, you're sure to come out a winner.

What makes you a real beauty:

Your Intelligence makes you a real beauty

There's nothing more beautiful than a good head on your shoulders. Witty and wise, you're never short on interesting conversation or an informed opinion. You like to stay on top of what's going on around you. From world events to local hot spots, you don't wanna miss a beat.

But all those smarts don't mean your nose is in a book all day. You're a friendly soul who knows how to have a good time and whoop it up. From grabbing a casual dinner with friends to checking out a hip, new art exhibit, you're not afraid to have a little fun. What could be smarter than that?

The ESP test:

when it comes to psychic abilities, you have an unusually strong talent in the area of Precognition

This means you have an uncanny ability to look into the future and know ahead of time what is going to happen. You might, for instance, simply know that you're going to get that job before the interview even happens with a certainty that exceeds what you would expect to have simply knowing the facts of the situation. You might have a sense of dread before going out for the evening only to later have a flat tire on your way home. These little hunches are easy to ignore but for you especially, quite often lead to a true prediction of what is going to happen. These predictions can be used to generate positive outcomes, and the more you know about how to use your talent, the more you will be able to distinguish between fantasy of the future and an actual reality you are seeing happen, before it has actually happened.

While your strongest psychic talent is Precognition, Tickle also analyzed your psychic strengths in:

Retrocognition: The ability to know what happened in the past.
Clairvoyance: The ability to "see" the unknown.
Remote viewing: The ability to see physical objects at a distance.
Telepathy: The ability to tune into others' thoughts.

What is your dream in the morning:

in the morning, you're Dreaming of More Sleep

Maybe you work the late shift. Or perhaps you're a confirmed night owl. Whatever the case, you're typically off in dreamland come daylight. For late risers like you, the snooze button just isn't going to cut it. When that alarm goes off, you'd rather get a few more hours of sleep in than get up.

We'd guess you're at your most productive later in the day rather than first thing in the morning. While some people can function on minimal hours of sleep, perhaps you need a little extra shuteye. After all, extra beauty sleep could be just what the doctor ordered. So dream on, sleepyhead!

What does your eyes says about you:

your eyes say you're Sincerely Sweet

Kind and genuine, you're the sort of gal who's always looking out for others and being a great friend. You have a big heart and can't help but open it up to those you're close with. When you're that pretty on the inside, you can't help but be beautiful on the outside, too.

When it comes to makeup, you like to keep things light and low-key. But that doesn't mean you don't enjoy getting dolled up on special occasions. And when you do, we'd guess you only add to your already sparkling and sweet self. You glow girl!

You are like (celeb):

you're most like Kate Hudson

Kate Hudson lights up every movie she's in whether she's following the band or trying to lose a hot guy. She's just so likable! And guess what? You are too. Like Goldie's golden daughter, you've got that certain sweet, girl-next-door quality that shines through everything you do.

Charming and caring, you're comfortable in your own skin — and your fans are likely to feel better just being near you. You're certainly no spotlight-stealing diva. In fact, we bet you're more often called upon to play the best supporting actress. Your friends know you'll always be there for them, which is why they've got your back too.

Where does your mood swing:

your mood tends to swing between Happy & Calm.

Most of the time you feel happy as evidenced by your feelings of satisfaction and contentment as well as your generally positive outlook on life. When you feel calm, your positive outlook on life is paired with a fairly low energy level. Although you might not realize it, your lower energy level is a positive attribute, allowing you to fully experience and appreciate your feelings of optimism.

When you experience the ups and downs of mood swings, the most important thing to remember is that you're not alone. Everyone—even the calmest individual—is liable to fly off the handle now and again.

Ever shouted at a loved one for no apparent reason? Had a bad day at work, just because? Or found yourself ricocheting between happiness and sadness? Getting your mood swings under control is no easy feat, but once you know what to look for, they can be surprisingly predictable and manageable.

What is your beauty aura:

your beauty aura is Natural!

When it comes to how you present yourself to the world, you strongly believe that keeping things simple — whether it's your relationships, career, or face soap — is the best way to be beautiful. You're satisfied with what nature gave you and aren't afraid to show your confident, unadorned self to the world.

Your beauty routine is all about maintenance. You keep your skin clean, your body moisturized, and add a splash of color to lips and eyes when the situation demands it. Other than that? You feel best looking as fresh as nature intended. In the course of being au naturelle you may sometimes forget to cut loose and have fun. You should feel free to dress up now and then or splurge on a scent. Spoil yourself, now and then, as nature intended.

What is your crown as a beauty queen:

you've been crowned Miss Compassionate

You're a smart, sensitive soul who cares a lot about your friends — and the world around you. The judges surely noticed that you truly believe in what you're saying, and that you've got a way of inspiring those around you to rally for your cause, whether that means recycling religiously, or just being friendly to the new kid on the block.

Your friends might tease you about being overly sentimental, but you can't help it if you're passionate about the issues. It's clear to everyone around that you've got a good head on your shoulders, as well as a good shoulder to cry on. That's what makes you such a good gal pal, crusader, and confidante. Who cares about winning a tiara when you've already got a heart of gold? Though you look pretty awesome in it if you don't say so yourself!

What is your relationship IQ:

your Relationship IQ is 126

This number is the result of a formula based on how many questions you answered correctly on Tickle's Relationship IQ test.

Your Relationship IQ score is a number that measures your general knowledge of how people should behave in relationships. But we also took a look at how you behave in your relationships.

Your test results tell us that your greatest relationship strength is expressing your intimate feelings

Post for Oct. 27,2006

2006-10-29T13:08:00.000+08:00

hayyy.. grabe!! na-enjoy ko yung party kahit pa'no!! kasi naman!!! Wala lang!! Kumpleto kami ng tropang lukaretz and onze kanina.. =) ahee.. saya ko nga ehh.. Di nga lang ako masyado nagwala.. Kasi baka mapahamak ako sa kagagahan ko.. Anyway, yung bhaby ko sinundo ako.. Pero yung nakita ako.. Hmmffff!!! Pinagtawanan ako!! Kaya ayun ayaw ko tuloy pumunta ng party kanina kasi baka mapahiya ako ehh.. Parang pinapababa niya yung self-esteem ko pati yung confidence na nakuha ko from my cousin and ate.. Kasi they complimented me kaya kahit nahihiya ako eh kinapalan ko na rin kasi maganda naman daw ako.. Ahaakk!! (kapal ko!!) Tapos sa bhaby ko ayun pagtatawanan lang ako!! That Hurts you know! Pero tanggap ko na.. Di naman kasi siya sanay na ganun suot ko eh.. Di kasi ako ganung ka-fashionista para sa ganun.. Kund di lang ako inayusan ehh.. Simpleng babae lang kasi ako.. Pero simple pa rin ang suot ko kanina.. At saka ginarab ko na 'tong opportunity na toh kasi baka next year eh di ko na maexperience ang ganung party diba? At saka isang gabi lang naman!! Ahaakk!! Marami naman ako narinig na compliments eh.. Kaya naging masaya rin especially kay Yeye! Ahaakkk!! (thank you talaga Yeye!!) =D Hmmm... Ayun, maraming pumorma na di ko ini-expect.. (isa na ako dun!!) Ayun, nagsayaw lang ako with Onze and with Mark and Russel.. Hahhaa! Pati nga pala si Grace sinayaw ko.. Ayaw ng bhaby ko sumayaw eh.. Ayaw pa ako kausapin.. Kaya medyo gusto ko siya sabunutan kanina ehh.. Pasaway kasi gusto ko ngang kausap siya ayaw magsalita.. Hayy nako!! Anyway, (change topic) Hindi ko na nararamdaman ang feeling ng walang breakfast, lunch and dinner kanina sa party!! =D

Ang nakain ko lang ngayong araw:
french fries(with my bhaby) << for breakfast (pero recess namin yun actually)
5 krim stix "milk" << for lunch
1 clover and 3 tomi plus sparkle << for my snack
1 slice of pizza << for dinner(with julie)
4 krim stix "milk" << for my midnight snack

Yung slice ng pizza na binigay ni buttercup Trixzy eh binigay ko na lang kanila kuya and ate..
Actually ayaw ko na isipin na di ako nakakain ng kahit isang butil ng kanin at kahit kapiranggot ng ulam ngayon dahil nahihilo ako.. At paran magkocollapse ako!! =D ahee,, ganito talaga nakukuha ng mga pasaway na batang kagaya ko.. Anyway, inaatake na naman ako ng Insomnia ko.. Wahahaha! Gusto ko na matulog ehh, Kasi masakit paa ko sa kakalakad.. Hahhaaa!! Pero ayaw talaga ng sakit kong Insomnia!! Nga pala ang mga nakain ko except for Pizza and Fries eh mga bawal sa'kin.. Kasi syempre acidic tapos may sakit ako sa bato at sikmura pati na ang aking puso (literal) naaapektuhan na kapag umarangkada ang Heartburn ko.. Iba na eh, join forces na toh!!! =D Ang mga sakit kong yun ay may samahan at tinatawag itong: "Oplan para puksain si Jazel" Saya naman nun!! Kaso syempre masamang damo pa kaya di pa ako mapupuksa!! =D Ayaw ko lang ipaalam sa mama ko na sinusuway ko minsan ang mga di pwede sa'kin!! Pasaway ako talaga! Pero ngayon lang naman na pure junkies lang ang kinain ko.. Di na ako talaga maggaganun sa susunod na araw.. Kasi kapag nalaman ng bhaby ko.. Well, tepok ako dun! Pagagalitan na naman ako at baka bigla ako iwan!! (waaahhh! Can't imagine!!) [Ang sakit ng leeg ko ha..] Nakakaantok na talaga pero ayaw paawat ng Insomnia ko.. Anyway, masaya ang experience ng first time na um-attend sa party.. Masaya! Hmm! Sabi pa ng bhaby ko may hinahanap ako! Eh wala naman! Hmmm!! Siya nga yata yung may hinahanap eh! (kiss-an ko yun ng malaman niya pinagsasabi niya eh!! =D) Ayan.. I have some pictures to show:

** Ilan lang sa babae sa Onze [Nin, Me, Lence, Mara (di masyado kita) and Ainica]
Alam naming madilim!! =D

~> Mag-Iina (Lence as my *first* baby cheekie, Me as their mommy and Nin as my *2nd* baby dimples)
[Badtrip! Wala asawa ko (ung bhaby ko) dito!]

Di ko sinama yung iba kasi mukhang wasted na ako dun ehh!! Meron pa pala akong nakalimutan..

>> Yan ang damit ko kaninang party partnered by a silver high heels and a black stockings (similar to my bhaby cheekie)

So yun lang.. Anyway kwe-kwento ko lang yung nangyari before uwian para mag-prepare sa party.. Ang nangyari sa'kin.. Yung first two periods before recess eh may mass kami.. Nasa likuran ko lang bhaby ko.. Kaya nagkasabay kami ng recess AM.. After recess namin which is Trigo.. Well, bihis agad kami for PE! ang nangyari naman sa PE eh nag-ten-twenty lang kami at saka Chinese garter.. =D kaya medyo masakit din paa ko dahil dun kasi matagal ko nang di ginagawa yun! English time (After Lunch) aba! Nagtest kami! Pero habang nagtetest kami inaantok ako kaya papikit-pikit ako dun! Tapos ang nakuha ko pang score!! 10 over 15 eh partida pa, halos matulog na ako dun! Tapos yung mga iba na akala ko nag-aral eh mga lugmok sa lupa ang score!! =D joke,, basta mabababa.. Tapos club meeting namin, wala! Nag-comment lang sa school paper namin.. Kasi Young Journalistic ang club ko.. =D Yung uwian, pag dating ko sa bahay.. Nawala si Cloud kaya umiyak ako nang umiyak na akala mo parang namatayan na! Eh mahal ko yun eh,, iniisip ko paano ako makaka-communicate sa bhaby ko kapag wala ang phone ko.. Yung naisip ko yun, ayun iyak ako nang iyak.. Yun pala!!! Kinuha ng pinsan ko sa cabinet ni mama ng walang paalam! (tzk!) Badtrip yung ganyan eh! Pinaka ayaw ko sa lahat yung hihiramin si Cloud, dahil sakin lang si Cloud! Pinakamasaklap pa nito eh nakatago na sa cabinet ng MAMA ko nakuha pang kunin! Tapos sinabi na lang bigla sa'kin nung dumating siya "nasa kwarto lang phone mo" eh paanong mapupunta sa kwarto eh di ko nilabas yun sa cabinet at ilang beses na ako naghahanap sa kwarto namin, wala akong nakita ni-kapirasong parte ni Cloud.. halata namang ginamit niya eh kasi nasira lace ng phone ko.. Yung date pa sa phone ko naging Jan. 01,2004.. tapos yung mga sent messages ko nabura! Ibig sabihin ginalaw niya yun.. Ginamit ng WALANG PAALAM (shit talaga!) Ayaw ko sa ganyang tao lalo na sa gamit ko! Nakakaasar!! bago ako tuluyang mabadtrip eh tapusin ko na itong kwento ko ngayon.. sa susunod na lang yung iba..

Trip kong mag-post ng poem eh..

2006-10-24T21:10:00.000+08:00

~~My Only One~~

Every time I look into your eyes
It makes me realize
You are that someone
My only one.

When I Touch you with my fingertips
I feel so much bliss
When I hold you tight
I know its right
Because when Im with you
I know its true
You are My only one.

>> qt ng poem noh?

Heaven Sent

Since the first time I met you,
I couldn't seem to forget you.
And lately I seem to find,
That you're always on my mind.
I feel so happy around you,
And I thank God that I found you.
At first I thought of you as a really good friend,
But I realized that my feelings there didn't end.

I was so afraid to tell you,
Cos I didnt know what youd do.
Then I heard that you felt the same way,
And those words were so easy to say.

Oh, when I see you smile,
It makes my life worth while.
And since the very start,
You have been in my heart.
When my life's skies are dark and gray,
You chase all those storm clouds away.

I've never felt this way before,
And honestly that is for sure.
I'm so glad that we did meet,
For now my life is complete.
You're what they meant,
By heaven sent.

>> Ayan yung poem ko nung 1st year ako.. Oh, dedicated yan sa sweetie ko.. =D
Bakit? Kasi ganyan na ganyan yung feeling ko eh..

You In My Heart

I could look at your face forever
I could hold your hand for all time.
If I could have one granted wish,
it would be that you are mine.

I dream about you all the time
and the way you look at me.
I love hearing you whisper "goodnight"
I love you so much, can't you see?

That I'm crazy for your smile,
and your beautiful glossy lips.
And when you hang with me
you don't need to find a disguise.

You're real around me and I love it.
I love everything you do.
I can't bare to be separated,
so I'll stick to you like glue.

I could look at your face forever
I could hold you in my heart for all time.

>> Ayan.. Dedicated ko rin 'to sa minamahal kong bhaby eh! Pero answered na yung wish ko.. Akin na siya! wahhhaaa! Akin lang siya!

~> Panibagong Entry <~

2006-10-24T20:59:00.000+08:00

hhmmm... I got so busy fixing my friendster account! jeezz.. I'm not yet contented because the characters of the CSS are not enough for my codes! Uggghhh! so frustrating.. I got so pissed because I cannot have what page I totally want.. tzk.. anyway.. Nov.1 is coming soon!! God! I can't wait to watch some ghost stories again!! This is so exciting!! I love it!!! Anyway,,, Me and my bhaby are ok again!! yeeiii!! I'm loving it! I hope we'll be ok for a long long time.. =D Well.. I got to post so many things here.. co'z my bhaby is checking out my blog.. Well.. I got my bhaby pissed when I post about happiness to misery entry.. waahhh!! and well.. nabasa na niya ang mga entry ko (halos lahat) kahit medyo mahaba.. ang tiyaga niya! mukhang hinuhuli talaga ako ng mahal ko ehh at binabantayan.. tzk3.. kaya nga kailangan ko i-rid na yung mga tsakang na-post ko baka mag-tampo uli ang bhaby ko,, Mahirap na! Ayaw ko na mag-away kami ehh.. Mahal na mahal ko kasi yun! Ahhhaaakk! Anyway, kinakabahan ako pumasok bukas, but expected ko na kasama ako sa suspended! I love it! =D (kunware!) Ayaw ko na umiyak ehh! Mugto na mga mata ko sa kakaiyak ehh.. (ang tagal magtext ng bhaby ko) Well ayun nagtext na bhaby ko! ahakk! (kinikilig ako sa text niya!) Hahahahaa! Hayy.. ang saya ko talaga.. Ehee,, wala lang.. syempre dahil yun sa bhaby ko.. Nako nanonood ako ng deal or no deal.. grabe! parang bola si Kris Aquino.. ahakk! pero ok lang naman kahit mukha siyang bola! Ahaakk! (sama ng ugali ko!) Anyway.. ahyy.. lapit na mag-Christmas!! ahaakk!! Kailangan ko na mag-ipon na datung para may mabili akong pang-regalo.. Ahaakkk! Babawi ako ngayon talaga! At saka secret ko lang to.. Umuuwi na ako sa bahay simula nung Monday.. kasi nag-iipon na ako ehh.. Awa ng diyos.. 50 pesos pa lang nalalaglag ko.. Pero ok lang yan! May piggy bank pa ako! Bawat araw kasi plano ko 50 pesos araw-araw maiihulog ko.. At saka di ko na pwedeng alalahanin na may pera na akong naipon baka magastos ko pa! Magastos ko pa sa katakawan ko! =D Kasi basta, may plano ako kaya ako nag-iipon!! =D Anyway.. sakit na ng mata ko.. sa susunod na lang uli.. mwaahhhkkkzz!

Dahil sa kagustuhan kong matakpan ang previous post ko na "Happiness to Misery" ito ang naisip kong paraan!!

Lyrics ng mga ilang kantang paborito ko... at ang mining nila or significance sa'ken..

I never knew love- Lovi Poe

I open my eyes, only to see
Just how sad this world could be
That i often cry alone...oohhh

I look at the sky, longing to see
There's a chance out there for me
For my heart to be set free...

Refrain:
My friends had say that it's ok
When rainbow's fade in clouds of gray
But in my heart i know someday
True happiness will come my way...

Chorus:
I never knew love till i found you
I's magic in your smile
Never knew love till i saw you lookin' in my eyes
And suddenly our sadness disappears
True love has fin'lly shown its smilin' eyes on me...

I'm searching the skies hopin' to see
If there's someone out there for me
Who will set my poor heart free...

(repeat refrain then chorus)

No ones believe that love was just a fairytale
But each time you hold me
Those fairytales come true...on you

(repeat chorus)

*I never knew love.. Hekhek.. Isang word lang pumapasok sa aking isipan kapag naririnig ko yan.. "bee"
At saka wala lang.. Nakakain-love ehh.. Song namin toh pero I'm thinking of another one.. Yung bagay na bagay sa'ming dalawa ng bhaby ko..

If You Believe- Rachel Lampa

I close my eyes
And even when I'm sleeping I'm all right
'Cause you are in my life
Once upon a time
I only imagined this
And now you're mine
Wished for you so hard
Pray that you'd find me
Maybe you're here today
It'll remind me

If you believe that dreams come true
There's one that's waiting there for you
'Cause I believe when I saw you
That when you want something enough
Then it can't escape your love
There is nothing in the world that cannot be
If you believe

Everybody said that I was a fool to think
That we could mend
But I couldn't get my heart out of my head
They just didn't see
No they just couldn't know
Feeling that you get
The places that you go

If you believe that dreams come true
There's one that's waiting there for you
'Cause I believe when I saw you
That when you want something enough
Then it can't escape your love
There is nothing in the world that cannot be
If you believe

Never wished for material thing
Never needed wind in my wings
I never wished for anything but you
I can't explain it
Someone just told me
Go where your heart is
You'll never be lonely

If you believe that dreams come true
There's one that's waiting there for you
'Cause I believe when I saw you
That when you want someone enough
Then it can't escape your love
There is nothing in the world that cannot be
If you believe

*Ito ang song ko kapag ako'y nawawalan ng pag-asa sa pag-ibig! ahahahaaha! joke3!!
Ang mining ng song na ito for me, is not to lose hope.. Basta one of my most favorite song 'to!
Ang ganda ng song talaga!! Kapag narinig niyo toh.. Aztig talaga!

Don't throw it all away- Jennifer Love Hewitt

Maybe I don't wanna know the reason why
But lately you don't talk to me
And baby I can't see me in your eyes

I hold you near but you're so far away
And it's losing you I can't believe
To watch you leave and let this feeling die

You alone are the living thing that keeps me alive
And tomorrow if I am here without your love you know I can't survive
Only my love can raise you high above it all

[Chorus 4x]
Don't throw it all away our love (our love)
Don't throw it all away our love

Don't throw it all away [2x]

We can take the darkness and make it full of light
Let your love flow back to me
How can you leave and let this feeling die

This happy room will be a lonely place when you are gone
And I won't even have your shoulders for the crying on
No other man's love could be as true, I'm beggin you

[Chorus]

You alone are the living thing that keeps me alive
And tomorrow if I am here without you love you know I can't survive
Only my love can raise you high above it all

(So high...above it all)
Don't throw it all away our love (our love)
Don't throw it all away our love
(So high...above it all)
Don't throw it all away our love (our love)
Don't throw it all away our love

[2x to fade]
Don't throw it all away our love (our love)
Don't throw it all away our love

*Song ko ito nung bakasyon.. song ko din 'to ngayon.. Basta.. may koneksyon sa luvlife ko ngayon hahaha!
Napapaiyak ako ng song na 'to! Sobra!!
Marinig ko lang 'to, naiiyak agad ako..
Naalala ko lang bhaby ko ehh..

UnBreakable- WestLife

[Shane:]
Took my hand
Touched my heart
Held me close
You were always there

By my side
Night and day
Through it all
Maybe come what may

Swept away on a wave of emotion
Overcaught in the eye of the storm
And whenever you smile
I can hardly believe that you're mine
Believe that you're mine

[All:]
This love is
It's unmistakeable
And each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
I feel that my heart just can't deny
Each time I look in your eyes
Oh baby, I know why
This love is unbreakable

[Bryan:]
Shared the laughter
Shared the tears
We both know
We'll go on from here

Cause together we are strong
In my arms
That's where you belong

I've been touched by the hands of an angel
I've been blessed by the power of love
And whenever you smile
I can hardly believe that you're mine

[All:]
This love is unbreakable
It's unmistakeable
Each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
I feel that my heart just can't deny
Each time you whisper my name
Oh baby, I know why

[Mark:]
This love is unbreakable
Through fire and flame
When all this over
Our love still remains

[All:]
This love is unbreakable
It's unmistakeable
And each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
I feel that my heart just can't deny
Each time you whisper my name
Oh baby, I know why
Cause each time I look in your eyes
Oh baby, I know why

[Shane:]
This love is unbreakable

*Favorite ko ang song na ito nung grade 5 pa ako!! Ang ganda kasi ng kanta.. Kapag naririnig ko 'to well..Wish ko lang yan ang maging song namin ng aking future.. hahahaha!! Ganda talaga nito.. sobra.. Kaso ung video nitoparang tragic eh, kung kelan ikakasal na yung couple dun naman naaksidente si guy.. tsk3.. grabe! (^_^) i luv this song talaga!
Tapos makita ko lang lyrics nito napapakanta ako.. Ito yung pinakaunang song na talagang minemorize ko agad-agad yung narinig ko siyasa radio.. 20 minutes lang after nung narinig ko yung song solo ko na agad yung lyrics..

I do- 98 Degrees

All I am, all I'll be
Everything in this world
All that I'll ever need
Is in your eyes
Shining at me
When you smile I can feel
All my passion unfolding
Your hand brushes mine
And a thousand sensations
Seduce me 'cause I

Chorus
I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
>From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
I do

In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
'Till that day I found you
How you opened my life
To a new paradise
In a world torn by change
Still with all my heart
'Till my dying day

Chorus

*I do.. wala pang-kasal na kanta!! Hahahahaha!! trip ko lang.. feel ko lang ako ung kinakasal kapagnaririnig ko 'to.. hahahahahha!! Gusto ko kapag ikakasal ako ito yung kanta namin ng future hubby ko!! =D

My Friends Over You- New Found Glory

I’m drunk off your kiss
For another night in a row
This is becoming too routine for me
But I did not mean to lead you on
And it’s all right to pretend
That we still talk
It’s just for show, isn’t it
It’s my fault that it fell apart

Just maybe
You need this
And I didn’t mean to
Lead you on

You were everything I wanted
But I just can't finish what I've started
There’s no room left here on my back
It was damaged long ago
Though you swear that you are true
I still pick my friends over you
(My friends over you)

Please tell me everything,
That you think that I should know
About all the plans you made
When I was nowhere to be found
And it’s all right to forget
That we still talk
Its just for fun, isn’t it
It’s my fault that it fell apart

Cuz maybe you need this
And I didn’t mean to
Lead you on

You were everything I wanted
But I just can't finish what I've started
There’s no room left here on my back
It was damaged long ago
Though you swear that you are true
I still pick my friends over you
(My friends over you)

Just maybe you need this
You need this…
And I didn’t mean to
Lead you on

You were everything I wanted
But I just can't finish what I've started
There’s no room left here on my back
It was damaged long ago
Though you swear that you are true
I still pick my friends over you

*Ito ung kanta ko nung pinapili ako: love ko over my friends.. hahahaha!! Obvious naman ang sagot!! (^_^)
Ahaakk! Feel niya kasi siya pipiliin ko eh! =D

I'd Rather- Luther Vandross

I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end
of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone (alone)
and I tried to find
out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoo-oo-oo-oo yeah

And then I met someone
and thought she could replace you
we got a long just fine
we wasted time because she was not you
we had a lot of fun
though we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies
so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
who holds my heart

I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine,

I'd rather have bad times with (please be mine) you,
than good times with someone else (I know)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (anytime),
than safe and warm by myself (so sure baby)
I'd rather have hard times to gether,
than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart (my heart)

I'd rather have bad times with you (surely),
than good times with someone else (surely)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (oh yeah),
than safe and warm by myself (all by myself)
I'd rather have hard times together,
than to have it easy apart (you know it)
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoooo.....who holds my heart

*Ganda nito! Aztig talaga! =D Ito yung kinanta kasi ng bhaby ko nung nagpractical test kami sa Music noon..
Ang ganda ng kanta! Sana nga kantahin ng bhaby ko yan para sa'ken eh..

From Happiness to Misery

2006-10-15T00:55:00.000+08:00

Currently Listening to: Dreaming Of You by Selena

Hayy nako.. I don't know why these past few days ay napaka malungkuting bata ko na talaga.. Pero ayaw ko muna isipin ang mga bagay na nakakapagpalungkot sa'ken.. Meanwhile ikukwento ko yung nagyari sa'ken ngayon,, kasama ko sila Ate Cha, kuya Chuck and Patrick kanina sa Talon!! :D grabe! ginabi na ako ng uwi.. Pagkauwing-pagkauwi ko ayun, bukas ng computer agad! Ahee! Sayang nga eh, nahiya lang ako na magtake ng pictures namin kaninang apat! Saya ng moment ko kanina kasama sila!! Ahee,, Eion hindi ako naka-sun kanina eh kaya walang katext kasi naka-globe ako! Pero ok lang kasi nag-eenjoy naman ako kasama sila ate Cha kanina..! Aba kanina pinagtripan kaming dalawa ni Patrick! Kami na daw ngayon! Ahaakk! Kulet eh! 14 daw kami.. Ahee,, ako naman nakikisakay lang! Tapos si Patrick kanina aba! Parang shonga lang ehh feel na feel na kami na! Ahaakkk! Tawag pa sa'ken "Love" aba!! aba!! ahee.. buti nga kahit pa'no eh nawala yung pagkailang ko kay Patrick kung hindi magmumukha kaming mga tuod do'n! Pa'no ba naman kasi eh mag-lovers ang kasama namin.. Syempre kung hindi kami nagpansinan pa'no na kaming dalawa diba? Kaya pala kami pumunta dun sa Talon (San Antonio Village) kasi naman yung ninang ko, tinawagan si ate Cha punta daw kami dun aba! Akala namin may sasabihin sa'min yun pala isasama kami sa MOA.. Eh ayaw namin sumama dahil nakakapagod dun kaya naiwan na lang kami sa bahay! taga-bantay!! Kamusta naman ang bagay na yun diba? :D pero masaya maging taga-bantay! Aheehee!! Nag-internet kaming dalawa ni Patrick ehh.. Eion nagkantahan din kami ng puro mga duet songs! Ahee,, courtesy of my favorite singer: Jim Brickman!! :D mga My destiny, the gift.. tapos meron pa yung kinanta ni Gwyneth Paltrow yung Cruisin'! basta, puro duet lang kaming dalawa dun habang yung dalawa dun aba! Nagsolo na! iniwanan kami sa sala! pero wala na lang sa'min ni Patrick, busy sa pagiinternet eh at saka nagkantahan nga kami! We really enjoy each other's company so much! Ahaaahaa! Pero ayun napagod din kami kaya nakatulog kami nang wala sa oras! tapos aba naman! Pagkagising ko aba!! yung ulo ko nasa chest na ni Patrick! kamusta naman dun kaya pala ang tingin sa'min nila Ate Cha at kuya Chuck ang chaka eh! Nanunudyo talaga!! Yung nag-snacks kami nako! walang patid talaga yung panunudyo sa'min yung pagkalabas daw nila ng kuwarto ayun nasa ganung posisyon daw kami tapos magkaholding hands! Susme! lalo pa kami inasar dahil parehas daw kami ni Patrick na kulay makopa! aba naman!! Depensa ko naman hindi ko napansin na nakatulog ako at saka hindi ko naman sinabi kay Patrick na magholding hands kami, ni hindi ko nga naramdaman na may kaholding hands na ako.. Kaso itong si Patrick! nagkukulay makopa lang! tapos ngiti lang! Kaya lalo kami ginagatungan eh! Kaya medyo naiiyak ako na natatawa sa mga pinagsasabi nila sa'min! Ewan ko ba! Basta ang masasabi ko lang naging sobrang masaya ako talaga nung nagbigay ako ng time para sa sarili ko mag-enjoy ng walang iniisip na iba kung di ang sarili ko lang na gusto magpakasaya na gusto makalimot sa mga bagay-bagay na nakakapag-depress sa'ken.. Siguro para sa iba selfish yung ganun pero wala ako paki kasi sobrang napapagod lang talaga ako mag-isip-isip ng kung anu-anong mga problema! Kaya nga pinili ko rin mag-globe nang sa ganun makapag-iisa talaga ako although may naka-text ako pero nagsabi ako na gusto ko muna mapag-isa.. ahaaahaa! hindi mapag-isa actually dapat sinabi ko eh dapat sinabi ko na gusto ko muna magpakahappy-happy! I thanked God so much kasi naman nagawa ko yung gusto ko eh.. Walang naging harang sa gusto gawin.. Kaya nga on my way sa pag-uwi habang naaantok ng kaunti eh nahiling ko na sana naman walang manguurat sa araw ko na sinimulan ng pagkabadtrip ko dahil nalaglag ako sa kama na naging napakasaya dahil sa mga nakasama ko kanina.. :D

Gaya nga ng sabi ko nalaglag ako ng kama nang hindi ko nararamdaman! Ahahahaa! Pagkagising ko ayun nakahiga na pala ako sa sahig, ang sakit nga ng katawan ko eh.. si ate Carla kasi masyadong garapal sa espasyo sa kama nila mama kaya laglag abot ko!Ahahahaha! Buti na lang hindi ako pinagpyestahan ng mga daga at ipis kung hindi nako iiyak ako nang iiyak talaga! Eh ayaw ko kasi ng ipis at daga!

Next Song: He Wasn't- Avril Lavigne

Yung una ayaw ko pumunta ng Talon talaga kasi malapit dun yung PMMS baka makita ko ang balahura kong ex na si Aaron na pakalat-kalat dun! Ahaaahhaa! Kaya sabi ko kay ate Cha sila na lang eh sabi pala ni ninang isama daw ako wag daw pupunta nang di ako kasama (choosy ang ninang!) ahee! Kaya ayun sumama ako, todo tago ako dun sa car nung dumating kami sa Talon tiyempong labasan pa ng mga Marine students.. Ahee,, sabi ng pinsan ko madami daw gwapo dun sa PMMS.. ahaii.. totoo kaya yun? Ahaakk! Tahanan daw yun ng mga kapatid ni Apollo, Ben Affleck, Brad Pitt, Johnny Depp at iba pang papable na guy ang PMMS! Dios mio!! Alam ko na kung saan ako pupunta para makasungkit ng papang gwapo!! Dun ako pupunta sa Talon- PMMS!! :D Eion, si Patrick talaga yung naka-bonding ko ngayong araw which is not bad kasi nga we enjoy each other's company so much.. dami naming in common, parehas kami ng gusto nun eh pati ayaw.. Ngayon ko lang nalaman yun syempre kasi iniiwasan ko siya.. Kasi si Patrick ayun nanligaw dati sa'kin.. Eion hanggang ngayon daw eh crush na crush pa din ako.. Binuko ni ate Cha si Patrick eh! Ang nagustuhan daw ni Patrick sa'ken eh yung pagiging simple lang at tahimik.. (alam ko na yan dati pa ehh :D) Sabi nga ni ate Cha ngayon lang nagka-gusto si Patrick sa simple at tahimik na babae kasi ang mga trip daw ni Patrick eh yung mga kikay na naka-mini skirt basta yung mga masyadong flaunty sa katawan.. I felt grateful naman na at least mayroon pala talagang nakaka-appreciate ng pagiging simple ko.. Na nagugustuhan ako for what I have and what I am.. Ahhee.. :D Simplicity is Beauty kasi ang akin ehh.. :D Eion back to what happened sa Talon thingy.. Sa sobrang wala kaming magawa ayun nagkantahan kami uli kaso biglang natripan na naman ng dalawa iwanan kami kaya ayun! Kaming dalawa na naman ni Patrick nagkantahan tapos tumahimik pagkatapos ng 5 songs.. nag-usap na lang kami dalawa tapos naisipan naming magsimba kaya ayun nagsimba kami iniwanan yung dalawa sa kwarto.. On our way Kinakamusta niya ako ehh, ilang beses na niya tinatanong yun eh! Sagot naman niya eh Wala lang daw kasi yung tinitigan niya ako habang natutulog daw eh mukhang malungkot daw ako.. Pero mukhang anghel daw ako! Ahahahahaha! Astig talaga ni Patrick eh! Todo bola na yung ginagawa! :D eion, sinagot ko nga yung tanong niya na tama siya pero magpapakalimot muna ako kahit ilang oras lang.. Kaya ayun sabi niya tutulungan daw niya ako, pangingitiin at patatawanin niya ako.. Na-touch ako kasi naman concern siya sa'ken ehh, halatang ayaw niya malungkot ako.. :D And if you're going to ask if he really became a help to ease my sadness, well, He is very effective! :) napakaloko kasi ni Patrick eh kahit mukhang tahimik lakas topak parang ako!! :D kaya nag-enjoy kaming dalawa!

NextSong: If Ever You're In My Arms Again

Eion pagkauwi namin sa bahay nila ninang dahil tapos na ang mass, habang nagkukulitan kami eh kumalam yung sikmura namin kaya napagisipan naming maglutong dalawa! Ahee,, nag-enjoy ako sa cooking session naming dalawa! Nagfefeeling kami na nasa cooking show kami tapos kami yung chef ng show! Ahee,, feel na feel namin ang pagiging partners eh! :D Tapos ayun dun pa lang lumabas yung dalawa kaya inasar naming dalawa ni Patrick tapos kunwari nagtampo kami kasi iniiwanan kaming dalawa tapos lalabas lang kapag kakain na.. Tinanong pa nga ng lokong si Patrick kung ano daw ba yung ginagawa nila sa kwarto tapos nako! Parang malisyoso pa naman ang boses kaya nga nahampas ko ng wala sa oras! :D Ayun habang nakain kami eion, tawanan.. tapos kaming dalawa pa talaga yung naghugas ng pinagkainan! Iniwanan uli kaming dalawa ni Patrick! Kaya nanood na lang kami dun habang nanguya ng ilang mga makakain.. :D ahee,, Eion as usual wala pa ring kaparis ang kasiyahan ko.. hahahaa! Tapos ayun pinatay namin yung tv kasi medyo bored kami kaya ayun nag-usap na lang kami! :D sabi ni Patrick "Alam mo mas masaya kapag nag-uusap tayong dalawa diba?" oo naman ako! :D tapos sabi niya maglibot daw kaming dalawa sa loob ng bahay kaya ayun naglibot nga! Aba! May gitara pala! Kinuha ni Patrick tapos ayun tumambay kami sa "receiving visitors area" gaya ng tawag nila ninang sa lugar na yun, (iba pa sa living room yun) biglang may tinugtog siya, sabi niya para sa'ken daw! Nako! yung kinanta niya!! Gitara ng PNE!! grabe!! kinilig ako kasi favorite ko yung kantang yun! Dream ko na may tumugtog nun para sa'ken! Hndi na nga dream eh dahil natupad na rin sa wakas! :p Ahee,, ang galing niya nga maggitara tapos yung boses pa niya eh pamatay! :D hayy,, yung narinig ko yung kantang Gitara hayy,, feel ko nasa cloud 9 ako,, hayy.. grabe! tapos tinugtog niya rin yung Muli again, by PNE! Napatigil ako tapos napatalikod na lang at naiyak kasi naalala ko yung bhaby ko eh, Kasi yan yung testi niya sa'ken noon para sa'ken daw.. Namimiss ko na siya ehh.. Kaya nga lang sa sobrang gusto ko mapagisa at magpakasaya eh nakalimutan ko siya, kaya ayun naiyak ako.. Syempre di ako nagpahalata kay Patrick, mahirap na.. baka mataranta yun.. :D Eion syempre lahat ng bagay ay may katapusan nung dumating na ninang ko ayun konting kain lang ng pasalubong, uwi na agad kami.. hinatid nila ako! :D

NextSong:Muli By PNE

I'm missing my beebee so much!! Ay nako.. Ewan ko ba kung ano pumasok sa isipan ko at nagpalit ako ng sim.. Ahaii.. Miss ko na siya.. Eion.. may kwekwento nga pala ako.. (kanina pa pala ako nagkukwento! :p) Diba nga sabi ko na ikukwento ko yung sa monthsary namin ni beebee? Eion nung kinagabihan ng Oct. 10 nagaaway pa kami nun ehh.. Tapos kinabukasan Oct. 11 na monthsary na namin! Eion may problema kasi ako ayun bigla ko nasabi na hindi ko na siya lalapitan for comfort,, Ayun yung nalaman ni bee yun well, nainis siya, sobrang nainis pero nagawa naman mag-explain.. Well, di ko na sasabihin kung ano ang dahilan pero alam niya na yun.. eion, medyo nalulungkot lang ako kasi inisip niya ginawa ko siyang tanga w/c is not true.. Gugustuhin ko ba siyang gawing tanga? Nakakaiyak! Pero as i typed my entry for this day, medyo naurat lang ako sa sarili ko kasi ako pala sisira ng araw ko.. Bago ko ikwento ang monthsary namin.. magsesentimyento muna ako.. Hayy,, naisip ko miss na miss ko na talaga bhaby ko tapos ayun may text siya sa'ken (kakabasa ko lang actually)..

"Elow bhe,
ala lang mis lng kta..
alm coh nka globe kah..
ala lang,
Bstah kain ka nah,
kung mba2sa moh toh,
Cgeh Un lng.."

Eion, na-touch ako ala,, kaso hindi niya alam na hindi ako kumaen ng lunch eh tapos yung kinain ko pang dinner eh medyo konti lang,, ahaii.. sobrang depress lang ako! Ako pa rin ang pinakadepress na tao sa buong mundo! kahit ilang beses pa ako magpakasaya kung hindi naman nalalapatan ng lunas ang pagkadepress ko, babalik at babalik pa rin yun.. Sa isang minuto pwedeng mawala ang kasiyahan ko, pwedeng malungkot ako bigla,, pwedeng tumalikod uli ako sa buong mundo.. Ayan.. puchang buhay toh oh! naiiyak na ako! kung kanino ba ako tatakbo? Naawa na nga ako sa sarili ko eh, kasi naman hindi na ako nilubayan ng mga taong nagpapalungkot at nagpapasakit sa damdamin ko.. Ahaii.. Well.. wala na ako masasabi at nawalan ako ng gana ikwento yung monthsary namin.. wala na nga yata ako makukwento eh masyadong depress na ako.. Gaya nga ng sabi ng bee ko parang MAMAMATAY ako kapag depress.. sana nga eh namatay na ako eh tutal wala naman ako matatakbuhan! Napakashit ng buhay! Ayoko na!!

Ito ang pinakamalupit na quote na nabasa ko at para sa'kin toh:

Madali Ipakita sa lahat na masaya ka
Pwedeng maging abala para lang kalimutan siya,
Madali magsinungaling,
Pwedeng mandaya,
Pero gaano ka ba kagaling?
Pag nagiisa ka ba ganyan ka pa din?!

Ang ganda ng quote, tagos sa puso ko yan..

Can't believe the pain that I'm feeling now because of loving you
~>Sana wala na ako sa mundong ito<~
+ I've been crying every night because of you +
- Alam ko na ngayon kung ano halaga ko sa buhay mo -
\ Siguro naman kahit paano nakakaganti ka na sa nabigay kong sakit noon sa'yo \
_ Masaya ka na siguro ngayon dahil lagi mo ako napapaiyak _
[ Masaya ka na siguro dahil nasasaktan mo na ako ]
^ Masaya ka na siguro dahil alam mong kayang-kaya mo na ako saktan ^
` Masaya ka na siguro dahil alam mong nakakaganti ka na sa'ken `
* Gawin mo lahat ng gusto mo, hindi kita pipigilan *
> Kung masaya ka sa pananakit sa damdamin ko, hahayaan kita dahil alam kong dito ka masaya <
^^ Staying Awake for the whole night and morning ^^
# Nakakaawa talaga ako #

Monday SUCKS!!!!

2006-10-09T20:18:00.000+08:00

ayun.. hayy nako.. this is such a bad day.. Kahapon puro iyak alam ko.. nagyon,, siguro ganun na naman.. napaka miserable ng buhay ko...

Supended na yata ako dahil sa Geometry, at mukhang hindi na matutupad ang kagustuhan kong maka-graduate sa SJA dahil sa pagkakasuspended ko.. hayyy.. napaka saklap talaga ng buhay ko ngayon.. ayun,, May kanta akong narinig sa radio kaya ayun.. Naalala ko yung ex ko na si Dave.. Hahahahahhaaa!!! Kanta niya daw para sa'ken... here are the lyrics...

HERE IN MY HEART (Plus One)

Wherever you are tonight, girl
I'll see you in my dreams
Wherever I go tomorrow
You'll be here next to me

And though we are a world apart
I know you'll never be that far
'Cause...

(Chorus:)
Here in my heart, there's a picture of us
Together forever, unfaded and unbroken
Wherever you are, your love covers me
Forevermore, you'll be here in my heart

Whenever I miss, miss you so much
It's more than I can bear
No, I won't cry, I'll just close my eyes
And know you'll be there

Your kiss and your touch I'll never forget
'Cause you're as close as my very next breath

(Repeat chorus)

And though we are a world apart
I know you'll never be that far
'Cause...

heeehee.. ang ganda ng kantang toh.. Favorite ko talaga toh ever!! hayy.. eto na nga lang siguro nagpapasaya sa malungkot kong araw.. Hayyy... Thanks sa kanta na toh.. Kahit pa'no kapag naririnig ko siya ehh sumisigla ako at saka nawawala lahat ng worries ko.. Hayy.. ayun.. Late pa pala ako ngayong araw ehh.. Kabanas!! Nakakainis kasi anong oras na ako naligo ehh.. 6:30 ehh, di ko kasalanan!! Nakakaasar!!!!! Hayyyyy.. Dapat nga tatakasan ko sana yung guard eh kaso iskandaloso ang guard sa school namin baka pumito pa dun!! Ayoko nga mapahiya pa ako.. Tzk3!!!! Nakakaasar talaga yung kapatid ko.. hayyy.. babush!!!!!!!

> Sunday is No good for Miss Miss Jazel

2006-10-08T22:03:00.000+08:00

Ahaii.. What a day ang Sunday ko!! Napaka shit talaga! Ang dami kong mga kaibigan na problematic sa lovelife.. well good thing for me at hindinaman ganun yung akin.. hahahhaa! Just too LUCKY for having my bhaby.. Hehhee.. Puro bhaby ko na lang alam kong language.. Kasi nakakapraning ang bhaby ko.. wahaii.. love na love ko siya! Ang maang-agaw sa bhaby ko bubugbugin ko!! Ayun..

Kahapon nakasama ko ang tropang Onze sa SM SouthMall.. hahahha! saya naming tropa nood ng sine.. well, masaya ako kasi kasama ang bhaby ko ahhaa!! kulet! Birthday pa ng bunso naming anak ng bhaby ko kahapon.. 15 na siya.. hahaha! Haii.. Yung panganay namin nasa'n kaya siya? Kamusta na kaya anak kong panganay? Kahapon lang ang saya-saya ko dahil kasama ko ang tropa pati si bhaby tapos ngayon,, napakalungkot na.. naiiyak ako!! Napakasaklap talaga ng mundo!

Hati ako ngayon.. hindi ko alam kung sino kakampihan ko.. Ang tropa ko oh ang kaibigan ko na kabilang din sa tropang Onze na nagkamali lang dahil hindi niya kaya maiwanan ang mahal niya.. Ahaiii.. naiiyak na ako.. tapos eto pa yung isa ko pang kaibigan na bez ni bhaby ayun,, may problem din sa love.. Puchang buahy toh oO! nanggigigil talaga ako!! Nababanas ako.. naiiyak ako.. gusto ko magwala nang magwala! gusto ko tumalon ng building! gusto ko na mag-suicide!! hahahhaha! nababaliw na nga yata ako..

'Di ko alam pero bakit kaya ako namomoblema sa mga problem ng kaibigan ko.. sabagay kaibigan ko ehh.. dapat lang! Eh damayan toh.. ahaii, emotional pa naman akong tao.. Konting bagay lang naiiyak na ako.. Eh ano pa kaya itong mga problema ng kaibigan ko.. sobra-sobra na itong mga pangyayaring ito.. sadyang di katanggap-tanggap.. Oh My God!! I can't take it.. My life is a mess ever! Pati studies ko nga problem ko na ehh,, Pero di ako aalis ng school ko nang hindi ako nabibigay buong lakas at effort ko.. buti sana kung naging new comer ako nung grade 2 or kahit anong grade ehh hindi.. Naagnas na ako sa school ko! At tuluyan na akong maagnas kapag naka-graduate ako sa SJA.. I want to be full flooded Josephian. Hahaha! Diba ang saya?!

Di ako masaya! kaya wala ako sa mood para tumawa talaga! Kailangan ko talaga ang bhaby ko.. Di ko na kaya ehh.. Kamusta naman kasi mga nangyayari sa mga taong mahal ko diba? Nakakaloka na talaga! Hayy,, bhaby I need you.. Alam mo ba?! Waaahhh! I need you talaga! Oh sino bang pwedeng mag-comfort sa'kin.. Kailangan ko talaga bhaby ko.. :'( hayy.. naiiyak ako! Di ko na talaga kaya!

Sige na, kailangan ko pa umiyak nang umiyak ehh.. kailangan ko pang maglabas ng luha na gusto pang umagos ng tuluyan.. :'(

* I'm so down.. * ^ Let Me Hold You ^ -I need you comfort -

` Laging in the mood for L~ O~ V~ E si Miss `

2006-10-06T23:19:00.000+08:00

>> Oct. 5, 2006

ayun.. P.T. namin kanina English and Filipino..Dinugo ako sa English.. Sa Filipino naiihi naman ako..hehehehePero saya nga ehh.. nakasama ko bhaby ko sa dito sa bahay namin..Nung uwian na, naghintay ako sa kanya.. heheheeAyy nakoh,, As usual tsansing lang mga pinaggagawa ko dun!! hahahaa!Kinikilig ako kahapon! Kasi dalawa lang kami ehh..Na-hug ko na nga rin siya sa wakas..Kasi naman di ko kayang gawin un basta-basta dahil,,,MAHIYAIN ako, SOBRAA!!! tapos ang bhaby ko TORPE pa.. hahahhaa!Pero kahapon, sinapian ako ng kakaibang lakas ng loob..Hayy nako, Isa na namang di malilimutang araw na kasama ko ang pinakamamahal ko..At least kahit nandito kuya ko eh natahimik lang kasi kunawari tinuturuan ko siya..Ahahahahaha!! Pero ang totoo naglalabing-labing na kaming dalawa!Hayy.. *kinikilig* magka-holding hands pa kami..Waahhh! Ang saya ko talaga ever!!

I love my bhaby so muchh.. Head over heels.. Hopelessly devoted is what I am..Pero I'm not obssessed.. Ayaw ko nang obssession.. Iba ang love sa obssession dibah?

Aheee.. Ayun wala na ako masabi.. kaya ito na lang..

~> Bhaby Para Sa'yo <~

- Sunset Thoughts -

Whenever I'm with you,
I feel like eternity is just one step away;
My love for you continues to grow,
With each day passing by.

You bring joy in my heart,
I've really never felt before,
Everytime your hand touches me,
I love you more and more.

Whenever we part,
Whenever we say goodbye,
Know in your heart I hold you dearly,
Deep down in my heart.

And just so I pray these eight words,
You hold so true;
"I love you very much"
"I'm only yours"

-- Un lang! baduy!! hahahhaa! Oh siya nga pala.. Mag-aaral pa ako sa isa sa mga pinakamadugong subjects ko ngayong third year ang GEOMETRY!!

>> Oct. 6, 2006

Hayy nako.. Sumakit ang ulo ko.. Dinugo ako.. Naiihi ako kanina habang sinasagutan koang PT namin sa GEOM.. sa Religion ayun, akala ko luluha ako ng dugo ehh.. Yun pala eh,Madali lang ang test.. Kaso di ko nasagutan yung give 8 social concerns.. Hahhaha!!Ok lang, nasagot ko naman ang karamihan eh.. Hahhahaa! Pero pagdating sa GEOM, hayy..nako.. wala na.. Anyway nagpunta dito yung mga ka-tropa ko.. Ang tropang Onze.. hahaha!Nag-group study at saka nagbingo.. nagkwentuhan!! Ehee.. Syempre.. Kasama na naman ang love of my life!!At ayun! sa wakas! Na-hug na niya ako.. kahit sa waist lang.. Heeeehee.. Feel na feel ko naman!!Ayun, kaya sobrang saya ko kanina ngayon ehh.. Ang saya rin ng gising ko after my siesta..Heehee.. Makasama ko lang bhaby ko, masaya na ako!! Sobra! hahahaha!! Kaso may problem ang bhaby ko,tsk..tsk..tsk.. yaw ko na isipin kung ano pa yun.. kalungkot eh!! Ayun.. Chem naman ang test namin tom.Sana naman masagutan ko yun.. Hayyyyyy........ Bahala na si Batman!! Ala uli ako masabi kaya eto na lang gagawin ko..

~> Isa na namang poem.. <~

- My Night Life -

There are so many thoughts and fantasies
Wandering in my head while I think of you.
When I'm asleep in my bed,
I wanted so many things.
I wanted to have no fear,
That right here beside me
You would be here.

I wish you could tell me
In person everyday,
Just how much you love me.
And would say to me,
Never to seperate ways.
It would just break my heart,
To know that we'll be apart.

As we gaze at the stars together,
On a dark, cold night;
We utter sweet words to each other,
As we hug,
Under the pale moonlight.
If you were here beside me,
I could look at you.
It could all come together;
That you are my dream come true.

I've been thinking about you all day.
I do that often it seems.
But I really can't help it,
When you're all in my dreams.

Meeting you was a fate,
This relationship between us,
I hope will never end.
Because when it comes to falling in love,
That was beyond my control,
There's just no way to restrain this feelings,
I have deep in my heart.

I couldn't explain how much I love you,
I've tried to find the answer;
But no matter how long I've tried,
The answer is still a mystery.

At night as I close my eyes,
In my dreams all I can see is YOU.

^^ heee.. Ang pangit diba? Corny!!! ahahahahaa!! oh siya.. aral na ako sa chem!!!

Miss Jazel Is In the mood for LOVE!!! :D

2006-10-02T20:45:00.000+08:00

Well.. well.. I’m back!! New Lay!!! New Life?! :p Anyways I have so many stories to tell but I'm afraid that I wouldn't be able to share it all..

Ms. Jazel is in love.. yup!!! soo in love to her bubuyog (bhaby/bee)! I've found someone already! I'm happy, very happy with my bhaby now.. although I know.. some aren't favor of it... I don't care! basta alam ko mahal namin isa't isa! At saka thankful din ako sa mga friends ko kasi supportive.. Tapos sa bez ko na inaway ko pa dahil katangahan ko daw.. Kasi bobo ako pumili!! :D pero ok na kami.. wahahaha! Naiintindihan na niya ako.. kasi ayaw niya lang ako magaya sa kanya.. Kaya protective ang lola sa'ken.. :D (I love You Bez!! Mwaaahhh!)

April 11, 2006 is the day.. But that time I still don't get my feelings if I'm right with my decision.. But you know what? Something made me realized that "he" is all I need to be happy.. To have a happy love life.. When "he" told me that "his" love for me wasn't that much as before.. :'( You know, I really cried that time co'z it's the only time that I realized that I'm really in love with "him". But still, I've hurt "him" once again.. Co'z I tell to my friends that it's all pity that I felt.. But No way!! it's not true! Before it's too late, I told my friends the truth, how much I love "him".. Really.. I can't leave my life without my bhaby.. :'( I can't make any stupidity again.. Co'z anytime "he" might leave me.. And I can't take that.. I'd rather die! I can do everything for my bhaby.. I can fight all the people who are against us! And I will do everything so that no one can take "him" away from me.

My first thought every morning is "his" name or the endearments I called "him" like: bhaby, bee, bubuyog, sweetie, love, mahal ko.. And my last thought before I sleep is "him" again.. Grabe! Ganyan ako kabaliw sa taong minamahal ko ngayon.. Hahahaah!!

Oct. 11 is coming.. and I am very excited!!! (^_^) I can't wait co'z it's our 6th monthsary!! whew! We're so tough even though we fight sometimes.. mild.. sometimes.. ibang away na yung tipong magbe-break na kami.. sometimes.. selosan ang pinagaawayan.. Both of us are jealous person eh!? I think..! But mas selosa ako sa kanya.. And I am VERY POSSESSIVE person! As in para sa'kin.. AKIN LANG SIYA!! Pagmamay-ari ko siya!! :D syempre ganun din ako sa kanya.. Bawal siya maagaw sa'kin.. as in HANDS OFF talaga siya! :D

Anyway I'm also a mild Ice queen sabi ng iba kong friends.. Co'z I don't want to display my true feelings to other people.. Seldom lang.. Yung pagiging selosa ko, hindi halata kasi magaling akong aktres, magaling ako magtago ng totoong nadarama. Basta, kahit nasasaktan ako, sinasabi ko "wala lang yun! Di masakit!" Hindi ko minsan matanggap yung totoong feelings ko.. basta ayaw ko minsan i-admit na selos na selos ako oh kaya nasasaktan sa karamihan oh kahit mismo sa sarili ko.. Pero sa kanya lang ako sobrang honest talaga when it comes to my feelings.. Siyempre! Maamo ako sa kanya ehh.. :p

Ever since nung na-realized ko na siya ang buhay ko, na siya ang mahal ko.. Hayy nako.. Nag-iba na talaga ang mundo ko.. grabe! Alam niya naman kung gaano ko siya kamahal.. Ang nakakainis lang! Hindi ko daw mapapantyan ang pagmamahal niya sa'ken! Asar! (kunware) pero ang totoo kinikilig ako, Ibig sabihin talaga nun, mahal niya talaga ako at saka yun talaga ang gusto ko eh, nakikipag-argue siya na mas mahal niya ako kesa sa pagmamahal ko.. That's so sweet!! :D *blush* Kaya lalo akong nai-in love sa kanya.. hayy nakoh!! Kakakilig talaga!

Anyway kwento ko na lang yung mangyayari sa monthsary namin ng mahal ko..! Excited na ako!! Ahee!! Time out na ako! :D aaral pa ako para sa Chem! :D

Pahabol:

Magpopost uli ako sa Saturday, Pagkatapos ng periodical test namin.. Ahee... :D

* You'll always be a part of me..* ^ Co'z you'll always be my baby ^

~ Baby, now that I found you I wouldn't let you go, I'll build my world around you.

I need you so ~ ! Baby, Baby the first we met I know you have this heart of mine !

> Co'z you were someone I couldn't forget <

/ I spend my life looking for that somebody, to make me feel like you /

Inumaga na naman ako..

2006-06-12T22:34:00.000+08:00

hayy nako.. inumaga na naman ako sa pagre-research ng mga bagay-bagay.. Ang hirap ehh?! hindi lang pala yun ang ginawa ko, inayos ko rin yung friendster ko ehh.. badtrip naman!! Ayun, hindi ko napanood ang Mirmo kasi magta-tanghalian na yung nagising ako.. 5:15 am na ako natulog ehh.. May project ako sa Geometry at saka sa Chemistry eh nahirapan lang sa paghanap! Kasi kung anu-ano pinagsasabi sa mga ibang site dito ehh.. [ Sabagay kasalanan ko rin kasi yung keywords ehh ] :) Nanonood ako ng Wonderful Life ngayon ehh.. Nakakaiyak!! Ang cute ni Janine.. :) Pero wawa siya!! Sana wag siya mamatay.. Nakakainis! hindi ko na-post yung week entry ko.. medyo mahaba yun ehh.. Hindi bale next time na lang..? Happy Independence Day nga pala!!! [ ang gulo ko no?! kung anu-ano pinagsasabi ko ] wahahahha!! bye!! :) Plugging time!! [Bing] [Luisa] [Mac] [Charmie] [Mae] [Raymond] they are mah newest links!! Bisitahin niyo rin.. Just wanna thank Raymond para sa pagbibigay niya ng award sa'ken!! :) yun lang masasabi ko for now!! - Tensionado -

Kakayanin mo bang basahin ito?!

2006-06-03T22:27:00.000+08:00

Post for May 30 & 31- Nakakaiyak

Natapos na ang klase namin.. [ Summer classes ] nung May 27.. Hindi ko nga malaman kung dapat ako magsaya o hindi.. kasi ang saya pala mag-summer.. Kasi ang dami mong magiging bagong friends.. Makaka-encounter ka ng different students from different schools! Makakapag-aral ka pa sa ibang school.. Malalaman mo yung mga ugali ng ibang teacher at student.. :p Naloloka na nga ako ehh.. May namimiss akong isang "tao".. Hayy.. Chepakz!! Wala naman yata siya balak magparamdam!! :'( waahhh! Miss ko na siya ng sobra ehh!! hindi na ako excited pumasok ngayong beginning of classes [ June 5 ] kasi napunta na lahat ang excitement ko para sa start ng summer class ko noon at syempre excited kasi ako makita siya.. :) kaya yun!! Hindi nga ako makatulog dahil sa "taong" yun ehh!! Lagi ko kasi siya naiisip this past few days.. Simula pagkagising ko siya ang first thought ko tapos pagtulog ko siya pa rin ang nasa isip ko ehh.. :) nakakatawa talaga! Kaso wala naman yata ako sa isip ng "taong" yun ehh.. :'( Hayun lagi na lang siya.. mababaliw na yata ako.. Hahaha!! Kaninang madaling araw nagkaroon kami ng bonding ng aking mga ka-berks na sina mon-mon Rap.. Jojo en syempre mah dearest buttercup trixzy!! aba!! kung anu-ano tinatanong ko sa kanila!! hahaha!! Sobrang tini-treasure ko ang araw na ito kasi si Buttercup ko, pinasaya ako.. nang sobra en also ang bestfriend kong si Nikka!! [ 5 yrs. na kami nun ehh.. Este magpa-five yrs. p lang!! hahaha!! Galing ng friendship namin!! ang tatag!! ] pati nga rin pala ang mareng Kat ko dahil sa mga sagot nila sa tanong ko!! Pero na-depress ako kanina dahil sa isa kong "kaklase".. Kasi hindi ko siya nakita.. [ Hinintay ko pa man din siya tapos wala!! Hindi ko man lang na-sight nang malapitan!! ] Eh kapag nakita ko siya, mapapasaya niya araw ko at siyempre AKO.. Kaso hindi siya nagpakita o kaya hindi man lang siya umakyat sa room!! Buti pa si Rea nakausap niya.. Naiiyak nga ako kanina ehh.. Kasi naiinis ako bakit parang unfair ang life! [drama?!] Ang tagal pa ng teacher namin dumating sa room kaya alas-4 na lang ako bumalik do'n!! akala ko makikita ko pa siya kaso ang sumalubong sa'ken isang school na wala nang estujante kahit isa!! :'( Tapos ang sama pa!! Dahil bumuhos ang kasumpa-sumpang ulan kanina kaya di ako agad nakapunta ng school.. [ Kuhanan kasi ng card namin ngayon ].. Na-stranded pa kami ng pinsan ko! Nakakabadtrip talaga eh! Sabi pa naman ng isa kong kaklase, sinabi ni Ms. Abundabar na alas-4 daw ang kuhanan! Yun pala hindi ehh!! Asar!!! Hindi ko tuloy siya nakita.. Waaahhh!! :'(

*Mamimiss ko yung pagsa-summer ko kasi yung mga kaklase ko makukulit kahit yung iba mga bastos at nagpapapansin!!

♥Mamimiss ko nga yung tumatawag ng " IDOL " sa'ken ng SOBRAAAAA!!! ♥ *blush* [ kasi 1st time ko lang ma-experience tawagin ng ganun ] tapos yung tumatawag sa'ken ng "sweet/cute" mamimiss ko rin siya ng konti kasi nakakatuwa siya.. Yung kaklase kong bakla na si Charlie.. Hahaha!! Si Charito na close friend namin ni Ainica pati na rin sina Mark T., Edmond, Mark S., Lowie, Kevin E., Kevin "mah labz" en Carlo ang kukulet kasi talaga nila.. Tapos yung mga nangongopya sa'men sa klase!! Ang mukha ni Ms. Abundabar kapag nanggigil.. Yung mga nagka-cutting.. Yung mga walang papel.. hahaha!! Nakakamiss talaga lahat..!! Ayun.. Nakakamiss talaga!! Di bale may naiwan naman kaming remembrance sa mga kaklase namin.. Yung mga umarbor ng picture namin ni Ainica!! :) [ hehe sana inggatan nila yung picture ko!! Wag ipanakot sa daga!! At wag ikalat sa tabi-tabi.. Mahirap na baka makulam!! ]

*June 5 na ang pasukan!! Hayy!! May na-sesense akong hindi maganda ahh.. Pakiramdam ko ito na ang huling taon ko sa St. Joseph.. nararamdaman ko ang negative radiation ehh.. Hekhekhek!! Anyway dapat nga dehins na ako sa St. Joseph mag-aaral ngayong year.. Kaso may nilaang pera talaga ang papa ko for enrollment ko ngayon.. Hayy!! Ang Shala-shala naman ng itay ko!!

*Bago nga pala ang layout ko ngayon!! Gawa ko!! hahahaha!! Pati codes nagawa ko!! Ang galing!! hindi ko expect na ganito ang result ehh.. Medyo pambata nga lang pero yan ang trip ko ehh.. Sakyan niyo na lang!!

*Ayan may song ako dito sa blog ehh.. yung first love ni Utada.. ka-sound ng We Belong ni Toni Gonzaga.. :) wala lang!! Gusto ko lang ang kantang ito.. yung lyrics nasa itaas.. hahaha!! :) Naalala ko kasi yung ate ni Sam [ bf ni charie ] kasi nung first time naming pumunta do'n sa kanila ni charie aba! Etong kantang 'to pinatutugtog tapos sobrang lakas ng volume parang sasabog na nga ang bahay nila ehh.. Naalala ko rin si Ainica sa song na ito kasi favorite niya ito ehh.. Actually maganda rin naman ang kantang 'to.. hahaha! Aun Alaws na me ma-say..hehehehehe...
Time Out: 2:00 am of May 31
*Listen Well.. Will You Marry Me?!* ^I would have never walked out until the sun burns out^ `I hope you're waiting`

Post for June 1- Galaan blues

Hayy nako.. Isang nakakapagod na araw talaga ngayon.. Pagkatapos kong magpa-enrol sa school ayon, naggala naman kami ng aking mga ninong at ninang together with my mom at kapatid kong si Mark pati sila tita Marlyn, inaanak kong si Mika at si Kenneth kasama sa galaan.. At napadpad lang naman kami sa Manila tapos Antipolo.. hahahaha!! Ayun ang saya nga ng aming gala kasi for the first time nakalibot ako sa manila! Nakita ko yung Ateneo, UST, Miriam College, FEU- which happened to be the school of my dearest sissy.. at ang pinakamaganda nito nakita ko ang UP-Diliman!! Nakapasok pa nga ako sa campus ehh, grabe ang laki niya!! Kaso hindi ko nakita yung Ovlation at saka yung main campus.. kasi iba yung route namin ehh..kaya ayun.. sayang!! hekhek.. Aba!! yung ninang, ninong, tita and mama ko kung anu-ano na sinasabi yung nakita yung mga universities na yun!! Do'n daw ako pumasok sa ganito, sa ganyan!! Sawz!! buti ba kung makapasa ako do'n diba?! Mukhang dehins nga ako makapasa sa mga unibersidad na yun ehh.. hahaha!! Sa ngayon nag-ninilay-nilay pa ako kung anong university ang papasukan ko.. At pati ang kurso na kukunin ko.. kasi ang balak ko kunin ay mga ganito:

Culinary Arts
Psychology
Interior Designing
Tourism
Nursing
Chemistry
Comp. Engr.
ComSci
I.t.
Medicine

*Mga gano'n.. kasi parang ang ganda ehh.. Kaso ayaw ko yata ng nursing.. Dehins kasi ako qualified sa attitude ng isang nurse.. Kagaya na lang na dapat mahaba ang patience.. Kasi syempre may times na yung magiging pasyente mo pasaway, dehins nakukuha sa madaling usapan, yung pagkaing ibibigay mo tatapon pa sa uniporme mo o kaya sasaktan ka.. Asus!! baka mapaslang ko na lang yung pasyente ko kapag ganun sa'ken.. Edi sesante naman ang aabutin ko dabash?! Naku.. kaya naman sana magtagal ako sa San Jose.. Para may career orientation ako.. Para ma-help ako sa kukuning course diba?! O kung hindi naman sana do'n sa school na lilipatan ko may career orientation.. Hayy nako... bahala na lang kaya?! Kakayanin ko 'toh!! Hahahha!! [ Hopefully ]

*Enough of the school thingy.. Gusto ko naman i-kwento yung nangyari sa'men sa Manila & Antipolo.. Nung makarating kami sa Manila.. Nakita ko nga ang school ng ate ko at ang nakakatawa pa ay nakita namin siya naglalakad kasama ng bago niyang mga friendships.. First day Of school na kasi nila ngayon.. kaya Ayun.. Nung nakita namin siya aba!! yung ninang, tita & mama ko.. Tama bang sumigaw ang mga yun?! Tinatawag si ate Carla at si ate naman parang timang sa kakahanap kung sino yung tumatawag sa kanya.. Hayy nako.. nakakatawa talaga kapag naaalala ko yung insidenteng yun.. tapos bumaba kami malapit sa Recto kasi may bibilhin kami, yung mga nakita ko sa Recto nakakatawa ehh.. Kasi meron do'n instant pagawaan ng certificate mo na naka-graduate ka sa kolehiyo.. Kaya siguro yun na yata ang solusyon sa mga problema ng hindi naka-graduate ng kolehiyo.. Punta lang ng Recto.. kaliwa't kanan na ang mga pagawaan.. Meron pa nga akong nakita mga pictures ng babae.. Mukhang mga "porn stars" ehh.. meron do'n yung isang board na may mga pictures na ganun may title na "WILD QUEEN" aba! Kamusta yun?! mga pakulo sa Recto..! ang kulet ehh.. Basta sa mga hindi pa nakakapunta do'n try niyo pumunta para maintindihan niyo pinagsasabi ko dito..

*Next stop natin ang Antipolo.. Kaya kami pumunta do'n ay para manalangin at mag-alay ng itlog sa Lady of Voyage daw.. Ang nangyari pagdating namin do'n Wala lang.. hindi kami nag-alay ng itlog at ang nakakatawa nakapunta na ako sa simbahang yun! Maari ka ba naman?! Do'n kami ng field trip nung first year kami.. Kaya pala nung pagdating namin do'n parang familiar ang place tapos naalala ko yung mga ibang imahe ni Mary.. Do'n yun sa Antipolo Church.. Do'n nga kami napadpad.. Nagdasal lang tapos ayun lumarga na kami.. Medyo madami kasi yung pagkain na dala namin ehh kaya nagpunta kami sa Hinulugang taktak at again napuntahan ko yung place na yun and naaalala ko pa ang date na yun!! September 18, 2005 - Saturday.. Paano ko ba makakalimutan ang masalimuot na araw na yun?! Hekhek!! Enough of the past.. I'm over it naman ehh..!! At wala na akong paki sa kanya! Hahaha! [ Ang sama ko naman! ] Nagbago yung Hinuluganag taktak ehh.. Kasi may pool na siya ngayon.. Noon pumunta kami do'n nung first year alaws naman pool do'n ehh.. Pwede na magswimming do'n! Mura nga lang entrance fee do'n.. basta hindi lalagpas ng 20 pesos.. Ito ang nakakatawa talaga.. Kasi yung isang ale nagandahan sa'ken..!! Hahahaha!! Mukhang chaka na nga ako ehh.. tapos may nagagandahan pa sa'ken?! :) Masaya yung naging trip namin sa Antipolo ehh.. Basta travelling thing masaya talaga ako.. Lalo kapag kasama yung family at mga pinsan ko.. Nakakatuwa..!! Tapos syempre kapag madaming pagkain!! The best talaga! :) Naiinis nga lang ako kasi nawalan ako ng NIPS ngayon! nakakainis!! Tapos dehins ko pa napanood ang Yakitate Ja-Pan! Pati yung Mirmo and Doraemon kaninang umaga! asar ba!
Time Out: 7:00 pm
^Panaginip ng kathang dakila nitong pag-iisip ko^ *kung ako ay papalarin na ako'y mahal na rin.. Pangakong ikaw lang ang iibigin.. magpakailanman* ♪wo shi zhong dai zhe ni ai de wei xiao.. yi lu shang xun zao wo yi shi de mei hao♪

Post for June 2- Palabas

*Nakakainis kasi dehins ako nakanood ng Mirmo! Last day na nga ito na pwede kong mapanood ang mirmo tapos ganito pa ang nangyari!! Hmmff! Actually kasalanan ko rin pala napuyat ako sa kakaisip sa pasukan ehh.. Ayaw ko pumasok talaga! Hayy nako.. Pero okei lang kahit hindi ko napanood ang mirmo kasi napanood ko ang Doaremon at Yakitate Ja-Pan! Syempre favorite ko yun ehh.. Yun 3 un ang hinihintay ko tuwing umaga't hapon.. Sana naman yung magiging schedule namin sa school eh wag lalagpas sa time ng Yaki.. kasi maiinis ako kapag ganun!! Syempre hindi pwedeng ma-miss ko pa uli ang 1 episode ng Yaki.. tama na yung isang beses ko lang hindi napanood ang mahal kong palabas.. Favorite ko talaga yun! Naalala ko kasi yung favorite kong palabas noon yung Cooking Master Boy about cooking naman yun! Yung Yaki about baking.. hekhek.. Favorite ko kasi yung tungkol sa pagluluto.. nakakatuwa kasi dagdag pang yan ang isa sa mga gusto ko maging pag naka-graduate ako ng kolehiyo.. Ayun wala lang.. trip ko lang i-share ang thoughts ko ngayon..
Time Out: 9:00 pm
&I never knew love 'til I found you& ~You are always gonna be my love..Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo~

Post for June 3- Boring

*Ang boring dito sa bahay! Hahahaha!! Pagod na rin ako mag-type.. Eto na yung regular post ko for the day kaso mukhang maikli lang kasi nasabi ko na yata lahat ng gusto kong i-kwento.. Ayun hindi pa rin ako tapos sa hangover ko sa pagtatapos ng aking summer classes.. Kasi malungkot yung nagtapos na ang klase eh.. Hindi ko kasi nakita ng malapitan at nakausap ang aking *Toooot!* [ Hirap na baka may mag-react ng negative kaya dapat shut lang ang mouth ko ].. Nakakainis talaga! Kailan ko kaya siya makikita uli?! :'( Alaws na yatang way para makita ko siya! Waaaahh!! Dehins ko kakayanin toh! [ Gaga! O.A. ka na! ] Ayun.. Kahapon may nasagutan akong survey.. It's about colors.. basta kung ano pipiliin mo may ibig sabihin.. Ayun.. Ang napili ko.. Brown, Grey and Yellow.. [ I think ] Eto yung meaning:

Brown- You don't know if you're still taken or not
Grey- You like someone but afraid to tell
Yellow- You like a person w/c you know you can't have

*Asowz! Anong ibig sabihin no'n?! hekhek! Dehins ako dapat magpaliwanag diyan?! basta yan ang mga sagot ko.. At ako'y nagiging totoo lang.. Ayaw ko kasi mag-sinungaling noh! Jeez.. basta alaws ako komento diyan.. eheeehee.. Sa Grey & Yellow naiiyak ako!! Kasi ang hirap ng sitwasyon talaga kapag ganito.. Yung may isang tao kang gusto nahihiya kang sabihin sa kanya tapos yung alam mong hindi siya pwedeng maging iyo.. Hayyy.. Kalokah! Bahala na! Actually sabi naman ng iba may gusto siya sa'ken ehh.. Kaso ewan ko sa damuhong yo'n! Nakakaasar ehh.. Kulang na lang yata ako ang manligaw sa kanya.. kaso syempre girl ako noh! Hindi pwedeng ako ang manligaw sa kanya.. heehee.. [ Arte ko naman! ] Ay nakoh! tamad na yata ako magkwento pa ng more personal kasi baka may mag-react ng negatib at mainis lang ako..! Sometime ko na lang i-wewento! MuahH!
*Bago ako tuluyang magpaalam.. Gusto ko i-share ang favorite song ko ngayon..

Dahil Ikaw- By True Faith
*Sa piling ba niya ikaw ay
May lungkot na nararamdaman
Damdamin mo ba’y hindi maintindihan
At sa tuwing ako ang
Nasa iyong isipan
May nakita ka ba na ibang kasiyahan
Refrain:
Nandito lang ako
Naghihintay sa iyo
Na mapansin ang aking damdamin
Na para lang sa iyo
Chorus:
Dahil ikaw ang sigaw ng puso ko
Ikaw ang nasa isip ko
Ang nais ko ay malaman mo
Na ikaw ang tanging pangarap ng buhay
Pag-ibig ko sa iyo ibibigay
Nais ko ay malaman mo
Na mahal kita
*Sa piling ba niya ikaw ay
May sakit na nararamdaman
Damdamin mo ba ay sinasaktan
At sa tuwing ako ang
Nasa iyong panaginip
Na tayong dalawa’y masayang magkapiling
(Repeat Refrain)
(Repeat Chorus)
*Sana’y pagbigyan ang nadaramang ito
Sana masabi mo na mahal mo rin ako
Dahil ikaw ang sigaw ng puso ko
Ikaw ang nasa isip ko
Ang nais ko ay malaman mo
Na ikaw ang tanging pangarap ng buhay
Pag-ibig ko sa iyo ibibigay
Nais ko ay malaman mo
Na mahal kita (ikaw ang sigaw ng puso)
Na mahal kita (ikaw ang nasa isip ko)
Na mahal kita (ikaw ang sigaw ng puso)
Na mahal kita (ikaw ang nasa isip ko)
Time Out: 10:15 pm
#Nabigla lang# ^Pede ba, sabihin mo maghihintay ako sa'yo^ &Naiinip na ako sa ikot ng mundo&

Back To Laypnez

2006-05-22T00:26:00.000+08:00

Currently Listening to: Suspension- Mae

After being gone for more than 3 weeks?! Here I am.. Back to life.. Duhnez!! sobrang kinarir ko ang pagsa-summer.. Ang saya pala mag-summer kasi I can say that I spent my summer in a worthy way.. Tapos I had the chance to meet other teens from different schools.. Kahit public school lang ang pinag-aaralan nila.. Halos hindi naman nagkakaiba ugali ng private at public ngayon ehh.. Ang differences na masaasabi ko ehh.. Sa private wala yung bulgar magyosi.. tapos sosi pa rin ang mga private at advance yung studies tapos may mga facilities ang private na wala ang public.. may sariling libro at walang bayad ang test papers sa private sa public meron.. Basta yun yun noh! Chenez!! there are times that I was so bored pero biglang babalik ang energy ko.. hayy.. Lapit na pasukan namin ehh.. June 5... Jeez.. 1 week lang pahinga namin nun.. hayy naku!! kaasar!! Ayaw ko muna pumasok?!! wakokoko.. Kayo kailan ba pasukan niyo?? Hayy.. Hayun Eto naman ako.. may entry para sa blog.. Actually I was thinking lately kung ano ba ang isusulat ko.. And then I came across this letter that I made for my bogz jhess.. [ ghurl xia ] ( Luv na luv ko yang bogz ko ehh.. sobrang close kasi kami niyan.. tapos lagi niya ako pinasasaya kapag sad ako.. ) \ Miss you bogz!!! Mwahhh!! \ As I was saying I came across to a letter for my bogz.. Which unfortunately I didn't have the chance to give it to her kasi I didn't finish it for some reason... It was Sunday morning when I was doing it and my cousin Lady Lee was still awake because busy siya sa ka-text niya.. Ang tatag kamo!! Simula 11:30pm hanggang 6:00 in the morning gising ang losyang!! Kaya hindi ko natapos kasi naisip ko bigla na kailangan ko magwalis sa labas... Wahahaha!! Trip lang.. tapos yun na nakalimutan ko na dahil naggitara pa ako nun.. natulog nang matagal na panahon este oras pala!! hehee.. masyadong nagsaya ako sa mga ginagawa ko ehh.. Tapos natulog na yung pinsan ko dahil natulog na rin ang katext niya.. Ayun.. nakakatawa ehh.. sinabi ng isa kong pinsan na si ate Mai at saka ung bangag kong ate na si ate Carla himala daw at nagising ako ng maaga at naglinis sa labas.. hahaha!! Sabi ko lang ehh: Nasapian ako ni Buddha!! Kaya naglinis ako.. Ayaw niyo yun?! Hehehe!! Ayun.. mejo maloko rin ako sumagot ehh noh?! sarap nga ng almusal ko nung time na yun ehh.. tinapay, coffee and pancit canton!! hahaha!! Ayun.. the letter was about how am I feeling that time.. It's about my past love.. It's about my Lancelot [ my ex ].. ngek!! nagdrama ako nun ehh.. Kaya naman isusulat ko na lang dito sa blog ko para mai-share sa lahat... wala lang.. Gusto ko lang i-share para di sayang ang ink ng bolpen..

The letter contains the following.. Yung personal letter ko sa bogz ko at sa mga sentimyentong ginawa ko para sa minamahal kong Lancelot... Siguro ang i-shashare ko na lang sa inyo yung mga sentimyentong ginawa ko para kay Lancelot.. Ok ba yun??!! kakahiya naman kasi kung isulat ko pa lahat.. baka may mag-react ng kakaiba ehh.. ehehehe!! No Offense Meant ahh!! (^_^) Ayun.. basta sana walang matawa sa sinulat ko.. yung mga dates nung sinulat ko yun ay makikita after ng sentimyento ko..

My Sentiments:

ℓ Aaron Paolo Garino ℓ

‍ Sana may paraan para malaman mo ang nararamdaman ko..
Sana may pagkakataong naiisip mo rin ako..
Sana may pagkakataong namimiss mo rin ako..

Sana alam mo ngayon kung gaano kita namimiss..
Sana alam na nahihirapan ako ngayon dahil sayo..
Sana alam mo na hindi kita gustong iwan..
Sana alam mo rin na SOBRANG MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA HANGGANG NGAYON.. [sigh] ‍

* Up to still now, You're My love..
Up to still now, You're this thing that I've been dreaming of..
And Up to still now, I can't figure out why I still love you and still hurting though I know
That I'm the one who left you behind.. *

I love you so much you know..
I miss you so much
No words can express what am I feeling right now..
All I know is..
I LOVE YOU & I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!

January 24, 2006

I Wouldn't Be here if I didn't love you..
I wouldn't be here if I didn't care
I would waste my time even the love has no chance..

You Know how To appreciate me,,
Nobody ever made me feel this way..

January 25, 2006

Eto naman yung mahabang sentimyento na sinulat ko actually PINAKAMAHABA ito.. With matching teary eyes pa ito habang sinusulat ko ito.. medyo mahaba pero kung may tiyaga kayo.. Ayun maakarating rin kayo sa finish line! (^_^) eto na..

Maraming bagay ang gusto kong sabihin sa'yo,,
Marami rin akong gustong iparamdam sa'yo
Gusto ko sanang makausap ka ngayon
Gusto ko sanang iparamdam kung gaano kita kamahal..

Sana nandito ka nagyon..
Sana naiisip mo ako ngayon
Sana natutulala ka rin sa pag-iisip sa'ken..
Sana miss mo na rin ako..

Puro na lang ba ako mangangarp ng gising?
Wala ba itong magiging katuparan?
Puro na lang ba ako mag-iisip ng "oo" kahit ang totoo, hindi talaga?!

Ang dami kong tinatanong sa sarili ko..
Ang dami ko ring iniisip..

Gusto ko malaman ang mga sagot sa tanong ko..
Gusto ko mabawasan ang dalahin sa puso't isipan ko..

Nahihirapan na ako..
Napapagod na ako..
Nasasaktan na ako..
At Higit sa lahat..
Nagmamahal ako sa kabila ng lahat ng nagawa ninyong dalawa..

Hindi ko alam kung sino ang tanga..
AKO na pumasok sa buhay mo at nagmahal sa'yo..
IKAW na nagsabing mahal ako at hindi iiwang kahit anong mangyari ngunit hindi natupad..
o SIYA na nanggulo sa'ting dalawa..?

Sa tingin mo tama bang iwanan kita, kahit sinabi kong hindi ko gagawin yo'n?!
Mali bang mahaln ka at ipaglaban ka?
Kahit alam ko at nararamdaman kong may pagmamahal ka pa rin sa kanya?

Mali bang maghintay at umasang babalik ka sa piling ko..?

Tama lang ba yung mapagod ako?!

January 27,2006

Ayun tapos na.. Pasensya lang sa mga kaek-ek-an na sinasabi ko diyan ahh.. Ganyan kalakas yung tama ko kay Aaron [ Ung Lancelot ko ].. At saka matagal na yan.. Nai-sulat ko lang.. Alam niyo naman na basta totoo ang nararamdaman mga ka-kornihan ang lumalabas sa bibig ng isang tao.. At merong times na malalim ang nararamdaman nila.. Kaya ang resulta ay isang madamdaming talinghaga.. hehehe.. nagpakamakata daw bah?! Basta naaalala ko pa yan ehh.. Simula January 22, 2006 and onwards may sinulat na akong ganyan kaso tinapon ko lang sa trash can sa classroom namin.. tapos yan nga naisip ko i-compile ang mga yan.. kaso nawala yung January 26, 2006.. Yun ung 1st monthsary namin [ supposedly ] ni Aaron.. Kaso nga nag-break kami kasi binireykan ko siya.. mga week siguro yun bago kami mag-monthsary.. wakokoko!! Sinasabi ko sa iba masaya ako sa desisyon ko pero ang totoo.. Nasasaktan ako nang sobra-sobra.. Mahal na Mahal na Mahal ko kasi yang si Aaron ehh.. Hindi lang alam ng iba kasi naman pangiti-ngiti lang ako kahit halos maiyak ako sa galing kong mag-pretend na okay lang lahat.. Si Aaron iba sa lahat ng nakilala ko.. Matured mag-isip.. malamang!! kasi 19 years old na siya.. tapos 3rd yr college na.. hindi lang siya boyfriend sa'kin.. kuya ko rin siya.. adviser.. friend.. at siyempre baby ko rin.. hayy nako.. Ang sweet pa niya sobra!! tapos gwapo siyempre!! (^_^) may mga times na umiiyak ako sa classroom dahil sa kanya.. tapos parang ang sarap i-untog ang ulo ko dahil hindi ko na kaya.. mababaliw ako na wala siya.. Pero natanggap ko rin naman na hindi talaga kami pwede kahit ba sobrang mahal ko pa siya.. Sana nga makakilala ako ng isang katulad niya someday.. Or if ever mas higit pa sa kanya.. Kasi naman hindi ako pwedeng makahanap ng kaparehong-kapareho niya dahil iisa lang si Aaron sa Earth!! Basta yun.. sa susunod na yung iba.. ByE!! mwahhh!! ah nga pala..

Plugging time!!!
Iya
Jade

Bisitahin niyo mga blog nila.. hehehe!!

At saka bagong layout na naman!! wahahaahhaa!!
from blogskins naman ito..
member din ako dun ehh.. taga-gawa rin ng layouts.. kaso never ko ginamit ang layouts na ginawa ko kasi..
nakakahiya... (^_^)

Wala lang!!

2006-04-08T00:19:00.000+08:00

Currently Listening To: Stick With You- PCD

There... hayy.. It's been a long time since I posted here in my blog.. I got really busy submitting layouts for blog.. If you wanna see my layouts just tick this picture .. Now I know how actually hard to code and design for a blog... hehehe.. OMG!! I don't know what Am I supposed to post!! =D

** Ganyan Talaga Ang Buhay **

Naisip Ko na rin sa wakas ang ipopost ko pagkatapos kong pagnilayan ng ilang minuto.. =D Hayy nako alam niyo ba na ako'y isang "MAPALAD" na estudyante!! Maari ka ba naman?! SUMMERIAN 'ata 'to ngayon!! hahaha!! bakit hindi ako nahihiya na ipagsabi ito?! Siguro sa iba sasabihin: "kadiri to death!! hindi nahiya na ipagsabi na summerian tohng babaeng to!!" Eh kasi po alam ko naman na kasalanan ko yun.. Hindi ko kasi masyado sineryoso si Algebra.. At saka I actually know what will happen to me this summer ever since AUGUST 2005.. co'z I have nice instincts.. hahaha!! I can sometimes predict what will happen to my future.. But not as good as Madam Auring or kung sino mang manghuhula diyan.. I don't have any plans to be a future/fortune teller noh.. Ayun wala pa nga akong school na naiisipan pag-summer-an ehh.. malapit na ang start no'n sa April 17 na nga ehh.. Pero I know by Monday Or Tuesday may school na!! Excited na Kinakabahan ako sa summer class ko.. The only benefit that I can get in going to summer classes is I would spend my summer in a worthy way but BORING!!! hahaha! And I think I can have more friends from different schools naman dabash?! kasawa kasi puro taga-St. Joseph's Academy lang ang mga friends ko masaya kapag may ibang school!! at saka baka may wafung fafa awt there!! Wuhooo!! [ Pasensya lang Umiral lang uli ang pagka-kreng-kreng ko.. =D ] Pero ahh, hindi talaga yun ang purpose ko sa pag-summer.. Hahahaha!! At saka impossibleng magka-boyfriend ako.. Sa panget kong to!! Asus!! ASA na lang ako!! wakokoko!! So yun.. Malungkot kasi hindi na ako masyadong makakapag-blog?! At saka hindi na yata ako makapag-gawa ng layout masyado.. =( pero syempre I wouldn't let a month na hindi man lang ako nakapag-gawa ng layout at makapag-post sa dearest diary ko!! =) Ako pa!! Lahat yata kaya kong gawin makapagpost lang ako sa blog ko.. hahahaha!! Hayy nako.. Malapit na ako mag-summer, mamimiss ko ang blog ko at ang paggawa ng layout... Hehehe. wala ako magagawa diyan C'est La Vie... =)

** New layout!! **

Ayan!! Ngayon lang ako nakapag-post about my newest layout.. wuhoo!! 3rd Layout ko na ito at dahil sa summer na talaga.. eto ang sinasabi kong layout ko na pang-summer.. hahahaha!! Ayos dabash?! Thanks to Mela talaga!!! =) Pero sensya na kung si Hello Kitty uli ang naka-feature sa layout ko dahil obssessed ako sa kanya ehh!! cute kasi!! =)

** Mah Greetings To All **

Malapit na ang holy week guys!!! Paka-bait ha!! At saka manood nga pala kayo sa ABS-CBN sa Linggo April 9.. About Kay Pope John Paul II [ang pinkamamahal kong pope!!] =) Dahil Summer eto lang gift ko sa inyo... Pasensya lang ahh!! hindi pa kasi ako masyado marunong sa graphics!! Pero sana magustuhan niyo kahit paano.. Gift ko sa inyo para sa summer!! =)

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** Chuva Eklat Ends **

Ayun.. Hanggang dito na lang ang post ko.. hintayin niyo na lang ang mga susunod pa!! =)

** Plug **

Gaya ng nakasanayan bago matapos talaga ang entry ko ay laging may plug ako para sa link ko.. At iyon ay sina:

Lianne
Sissy

** Let Me Be The One To Break It Up ** & Check On It Tonight & ^ Foolish Heart ^

- Totally Mixed -

2006-03-22T09:07:00.000+08:00

Currently: Listening To Music: Do You Remember

* Morning Discussion *

Waaahhh!! Good Morning!! [ sigh ] I thought this day would be great.. As I woke Up I sent Gm [ group messaging ] to mah sunmates!!! And I received a message from a friend.. And she has a problem.. It's about her boyfriend. and of course as her friend I listened to her and We discussed about it. And her problem is that there is a freak who wants to destroy their relationship.. And that freak is known for being so flirt and feeling maganda eh mukhang busabos naman!!! nakuu!! tingin ko nga bagay sila magkasama ng bestfriend niya dahil tugmang-tugma ang mga ugali nila.. Nakakainis kasi itong freak na 'to dahil wala naman ginagawa ang kaibigan ko sa kanya tapos naninira ng may buhay ng may buhay!! And I know how much my friend loves her boyfriend. Maybe it's exaggerating, but she really can't live without the guy.. And I'm sure the feeling is the same when We love a person very much!! I told her to sleep co'z she doesn't have enough sleep. But she really can't sleep because of that freak.. And I'm really mad at that freak.. Dahil sa kanya ayaw na matulog ng friend ko.. My comment to that freak is that she is really that desperate?! Duh!!! She's doing everything just to win my friend's boyfriend.. And may ka-join force pa siya!! at yun ay walang iba kundi ang chakang bestfriend niya.. naku!! Kung warfreak lang ako, talaga naman!! makikipag-away ako sa dalawang chakang yun!! Pero I told to my friend that if her boyfriend loves her, the guy wouldn't believe to that freak, no matter what she says right?! But the sad thing is that my friend is going to United States this coming December and her boyfriend is graduating this March 31. And soon their beautiful story will end.. =(

& St. Teresa Of Avila's Outing &

Yesterday My Section had an Outing at Park Place Imus, Cavite. But the sad thing is that I wasn't able to go with them. as usual it's about the things that might happen to me during the outing. Co'z I'm very clumsy and the other reason is a secret!! =| But infact I am not feeling bad at all co'z I'd rather stay in the house than to go wit them co'z for sure I wouldn't be enjoying it because I have.. *err well you know it girls* and I would just sleep all day long!! =) and maybe some of my classmates would tell: "What's the use of going with us if you are not going to swim?!" Well, actually I've been imagining things.. What If I go with them and swim with them?! What If something freaky float on the pool?! What if someone push me at the pool?! Oh boy!! I can't take that !! waahhh!! Anyway although I didn't go with them, I'm so excited tomorrow!!!!! =) My classmates are going here!!! Jeez!! I can't wait for tomorrow!! I'm sure this will be very fun!! I just hope that We will be complete!!! I can't wait!! Wahahaahaha!!

^ Just Playing ^

I used the photo Of Jang Nara and I don't know this guy.. hehehe It is their picture at their show namely: The Wedding airing at Channel 2 every weekends

Here Is A photo I made using Photoshop Cs:

After that I used Flash Fireworks And the result:

Then I combined the two pictures using Imageready:

Hayy.. I guess I' gonna burn my ass in front of the computer for some hours!!! co'z I have so many things to do!! 'til Here!! mwahhh!!

Just wanna plug mah newest Links:

Liannez
Janine
Dessy
Rxyl
Mnel
Louise

Please Visit their Lovely sites!!! =)

= You Ask Me Too.. I Love You but.. = / Have Faith when You call Me I'll Be there / | Wishing you on a falling star | & I just can't smile without you & # Paikot-ikot tayo parang bote # % I'm in no shape to love %

This Is How School Life Goes..

2006-03-14T19:31:00.000+08:00

Stress x 3 + Pressure + Paper works + Periodical Tests + Low Scores= My Brain busted already.. [ Today ]

Really Can't believed that I actually finished the requirements.. Especially the experiments in Biology.. I have 6 incomplete activities and who would believe that I actually finished it in one hour.. Writing those questions in a bond paper wasn't that easy.. Co'z some have illustrations.. tables.. The Applications.. Observations and Generalizations.. Phew!! that's tough! And for the love of God!! I almost weep inside our classroom co'z I think I can't finish it..

But With God's help and will I ever forget mah dearest ka-tropa namely Leonor who helped me to fixed everything.. I finished it before the bell rang.. Tough Luck isn't it?! Heehee.. Maybe I'm a bit lucky today although I didn't feel well awhile ago.. Co'z thinking of how will I finish requirements really makes mah mind go crazy..

And because of the pressure and stress I felt awhile ago.. I became snob to my classmates and other friends and also for other people.. who wouldn't think that I'm so snob if mah forehead is wrinkling already because mah brows is closely to kiss each other and mah eyes... Looks like they are flaring.. And I don't want mah classmates to disturb me co'z I'm gonna burst.. And when someone will talk to me I would reply them: "Later!!".. Well.. I know they knew who they are and if you are reading this.. and you are one of them.. I apologize.. Really I am sorry.. I didn't mean to treat you that way.. I just hope there will be PEACE on EARTH errr.. on the BOTH OF US rather.. :p

Anyway.. Summer is really in!!! that's why Miss Dyeyzy's layout is new again!!! I Love Shopping Featuring Hello Kitty!!! =) I really love this layout!! but If vacation is in I would change my layout into new one which is really for summer!! My old layout which is Upside-Down is soon to be featured at mah xanga blog with photo preview and the codes provided.. =)

Phewww!!! Periodical Exams ( March 16-18) is soon.. Guys!! Wish Me Luck?! =) And after the Periodical Exams, yeeHeeyY!! Vacation!! but I'm gonna miss my section.. =) So 'Til here..!!!

Just Want To plug my newest Link: Carmina

Please pay a visit to her sweet blog..!! =)

* Give My Love Away To Hold You Tight * ^ I'm Tryin' To show You The Life Of Somebody like You should Be Livin' ^ + Co'z The Party Ain't Jumpin' Like It Used To + - I Must Stick With You - # Breakaway #

~ Emotions + Thoughts + Sadness ~

2006-03-09T20:22:00.000+08:00

err.. well.. My first official entry is here.. I really don't know why I didn't have it before..

You know, like what I said that I would have it before February ends.. but look what date it is...

March 9, 2006.. Pheww!!! Actually I was really busy than ever.. I was busy answering some homeworks...

Studying for some quizzes.. completing my requirements.. And today I would study my Music, Drafting and Araling Panlipunan because tomorrow would be our Last Periodical test for Makabayan subjects..

I just wish for myself that I will pass... Cause to be honest.. I have one failing subject and that is MATH.. although this subject is my favorite.. I still failed.. It is okay for me to take summer classes in Math.. I guess this would really help me a lot.. And I would never be ashamed to admit that I will take summer classes in Math.. better to be honest than to fool YOURSELF and other people..

At least I have only one failing subject and that wouldn't take me to be repeater.. but sadly I would be C.E. ( conditionally enrolled ) next year.. But I guess that's better than to say goodbye to my school.. which gave me so many wonderful memories to remember for more than 7 years..

I have witnessed how my lovely school grown into some changes.. the people who come and go.. the classrooms... the school song... and many more..

And now, talkin' about my rockin' section.. the II-ST. TERESA OF AVILA.. headed by our beloved Ms. Adeliza " Mama Ly " Vargas.. composed of 19 naughty boys and 21 unique girls.. lolz

Vacation is soon to come and I'm gonna miss this section of mine.. ='(

I just wanted you to know that I REALLY DO LOVE this section.. although some teachers hated us because of our naughtiness and noisiness.. hmmm... I tell You..

This is the section where you can find the people who are great in mimicking... :p

The section where you can find people who are talented in the field of MUSIC, DANCING and WEBDESIGNING.. =)

I am really glad to be a part of this section.. Very glad infact..

I will really miss all the rockin' TERESIANZ.. and of course our beloved Mama Ly

I just hope that we would never forget each other.. that we would treasure all the wonderful memories we shared together..

Miss Dyeyzy will miss the teresianz for sure.. ='(

I have my newest domain again.. My dot tk domain name finally expired..

And now I am here with my new domain name..

Thanks to Uni.CC for my domain name.. =)

Pheww!! I am not yet ready to buy my domain name ehh..

Maybe next time..

And before my background music is Graduation by Vitamin C..

In .MID format.. now I have my new music...

It's Like That by Mariah Carey..

One of my favorite singer.. =)

Guess here is where my first entry ends...

bye guyz!! muahhhh!!!

The Grand OpeNing

2006-02-26T17:43:00.001+08:00

- jeez...

after sitting at the front of computer for more than two hours...

here's my new blog with new layout, new domain name.. heehee...

Well.. it's not that easy.. i have to host everything...

Put the contents..

Look for some codes to enhace the blog...

And Of course,, for my new domain name..

I have to sign-up for my new domain name..

Because My Domain Name at dot tk is soon to expire..

Co'z no one is visiting my site and it is also because I am TOO LAZY to update my blog..

I dunnow when would be my FIRST OFFICIAL ENTRY...

but I hope you would enjoy my bLog.. Then add me to your link aight?! :)

And I just hope you would wait for my first official entry....

Please bear with me co'z I am too busy because of schooling..

Co'z I have so many assignments, projects and lessons to study...

So please be patient..

Anyway..

I have already the idea on what would be my entries for FEBRUARY..

And I am going to make sure that I would post it all before the month ends..

So here's When my Introduction Ends..

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2006-01-09T00:16:00.000+08:00

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